Shit that pisses me off

Diet

Today I told myself that I would limit how much I would eat in a day.

1) Eat a small breakfast (if I can)
2) Eat some lunch
3) Only have one serving of food for dinner

I had two servings for dinner... I now feel fat...

I have this problem where, I don't want to be too fat and I don't want to be too skinny. There is no in between... This sucks for a person already dealing with gender dysphoria.

I usually lean more to the side that I'm not skinny enough more than that I'm too skinny...

This all just sucks. If there is a word for this problem, could you guys tell me what it is?