Shit that pisses me off

So what?

I am fully prepared to fail my AP history class. I know I'm an idiot for choosing to go into an AP class, but I thought I could handle it. I guess not. I can pass this class, it's just my laziness is ridiculous. I've tried to tell myself that I need to do the work, but I just feel like no matter what I do, I'll be wrong and it won't be right, so what's the point? People tell me I'm smart, I don't think I am. So what, I can use Photoshop. So what, I can memorize somethings. So what, I'm a good writer. So fucking what?! Grades are what people care about anyway and actual smarts don't count. Look at Einstein, he was considered 'stupid' because he got bad grades. He basically created the atomic bomb and was later known as one if the most smartest people on earth! I know I'm smart, but I don't feel like it. I'm just done... Go ahead and fail me for the class, but I'm pretty sure I'll pass the test. With that they can't revoke my credits, I passed the test. They can't hold me back for that. I feel worthless. Like all I'm ever going to accomplish in my life is failure... I feel like that's what my parents are telling me... "Claudia bring your grades up!" "Do you want to fail and have your sister a grade ahead of you?!" "You have a 63 you're grounded! You're not allowed to watch TV for the rest of the school year!" "If you keep this up you're going to fail!"

Shut up... Shut up. Shut up! Shut up! Shutup!Shutup!Shutup!Shutup! JUST SHUT UP!