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After two months of waiting, I finally talked to my parents about me being transgender. I got the exact reaction that I was expecting. They said that they would not support me medically and that they will still love me, and I quote; "Through this phase- if it even is a phase." They sounded so certain that this is a phase. Well guess what, it's fucking not. They refuse to use the proper pronouns and they also refuse to call me Damen which just pissed me off. My mother said, "I'm not going to call you something else. I gave birth to you and your name is Claudia." Thanks, you're basically racking up my dysphoria. Also there is more, "Don't ever think that we aren't accepting of you." Well, how you're acting sure as hell isn't accepting it to me... She then proceeded to go onto a tangent on how, "I wanted a lot of things when I was fourteen and now that I look back on them, they were stupid." and "What if you do do the surgery and it's something you completely regret?" Wow... There is such thing as changing it all back! I read up on it, believe me. People change back if they aren't happy with themselves. She also said that I still do a lot of "feminine" things. Like what, name one for the fucking audience. I do those things because I am expected to. Like wearing a dress, wearing makeup (Ew and newsflash! Guys can wear makeup too), enjoy girly clothes (I like looking at dresses and how cute they are, but guys can do that too) and fangirling (that's why there is the term, fanboy!). I'm just so done... I might as well start acting like a cis girl. Wearing makeup everyday, spending too much time on my hair to make it "perfect", wear dresses once a week, buy makeup, watch chick flick movies... I now feel like I can't be myself... I'm sorry for the long post and I congratulate you for reading all of this bullshit.