Shit that pisses me off

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I hate this life
I hate myself
I hate the place I live in
I hate them
I hate all of the fighting
I hate who I am
I hate my voice
I hate my face
I hate my body
I hate my eyes
I hate this world
I hate how my life is
I hate how much they fight
I hate everything

It hurts

Just...

Let me leave this cruel place
This place they call home
This place that they've fought in
This place where I've been scarred by the sexual abuse of others
This place where I've wanted to die so many times
This place where I raised a blade to my wrist, but lowered it, remembering the unhelpful treatment that they will give me
This place where I was dragged to the hospital
This place where I defied them and ran away
This place where all of my anger has no where to go
This place where they have "family"
This place where I've wanted to kill so many people, in a literal sense

I want them to save me
I want to be heard
I want to love
I want to live
I want to fight

I just...

Want...

To be loved...