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*TJ's POV*
When we came home from the hospital, I carried Bella in my arms upstairs to our bedroom. I laid her gently upon our bed, she didn't look so well at all. Her face is even more paler than before, and she's just breathing slowly then she usually does. She looks like she's in pain, again.
I placed my hand on her belly feeling our little joy kick freely inside. I look at her once more noticing that she flinched a little. Why is she flinching every time the baby moved? surely the baby isn't hurting her ....is it? I placed my hand on her shoulder and I looked into her tired blue eyes.
"What's the matter love?" I asked.
She sighed and closed her eyes. I placed my hand on her forehead and it was scorching hot.
"TJ....I can't do this.....it's too hard. The baby.....the baby is just wearing me out." She whispered.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean.....I'm in so much pain right now. It hurts I don't know how much longer I can hold on."
"Don't say that. You can do it Bella . Death is not your option, you will be alright I promise."
"TJ forgive me for saying this....but I think I might end up losing this baby."
"No no stop it you're scaring the living shit out of me. The doctor said that you're healthy, I mean you're eating well and you're resting well."
"That's what you think. I don't even have an appetite anymore, and......I'm just completely restless.....I can't do this I'm sorry."
Tears started swelling up in my eyes as I stood up and approached the window. Why is she doing this to me? it's like she's playing with my emotions, because just a few hours ago at the hospital she was saying how much she wants to have our baby, and how much she loves it. What the hell is wrong with her? I'm scared out of my mind for her. I'm still hurt at the fact that she tried to keep me from knowing that she's carrying my child. I know I forgave her for it, but it still hurts. You don't just keep a secret like that from me or anyone ....ever. And not only that but she even told me that she was going to get an abortion.....without me even knowing. I don't understand. I keep trying to figure out why she's acting like this but nothing making any sense to me anymore. My heart is broken all over again. I need someone to help me help her.
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* Bella's POV *
I wish I could make TJ understand how much pain I'm in. One thing I didn't tell him is that the baby is what's causing my pain. The doctor may have told him that I'm fine but I'm not. I feel terrible. It hurts every time the baby kicks, and the migraines have gotten even worse that I become nauseated and weak. All I want to do now is lay in bed. I cry every night because I hurt so much.
I lied to TJ because I didn't want him to hate me. I didn't want to hurt him, and I never intended to. I wanted to have an abortion because I wasn't ready for a child, and I'm not prepared to raise one. I didn't lie when I told him that I love our baby though. I do, I really do. I don't know what I want right now, and I have so many mixed emotions. Something really is telling me not to have this baby though. I don't have any control of myself anymore. Something has taken over me. Strings have been attached to my body, and now my soul has become a puppet. What is my fate now?
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Welcome Home
HorrorBella is a young girl who is not normal. She swears that she is, but she isn't and it's sad. She has these weird dreams, and says it's like she's actually there. She doesn't believe that she has problems. She won't wake up. She believes that the who...
