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Chapter XXIII: My Lamb

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*TJ's POV*

I fell to my knees and quickly grasped her cold body in my arms. I held her close to me like I used to before she left. I can barely feel her heart beating, and her breathing. She won't open her eyes, and I can't help but to feel that I've already lost her. I picked her up in my arms and I carried her to the her. We drove in silence as we rushed her to the hospital. I was still holding her inside my arms still pondering whether she's alive or not. I looked at her arms noticing scratches that looked as if they were inflicted deep, and there were dried up cuts also. I saw poison ivy infections on her chest. I looked at her face again and I noticed that her cheeks that once flushed a rosy pink are pale. I squeezed her hand a little hoping that she's still here.

When we finally arrived at the hospital I held Bella tight in my arms and rushed him inside.

"Please she needs help, she's not well. She won't wake up." I cried.

The nurse didn't say anything she hurried and grabbed a couple of doctors and a stretcher. They gently took her away from me and placed her on the stretcher. I stood back and watched them take him to the back. Lana grabbed me and held me inside her arms as I cried and screamed.

"Shh TJ it's okay. It's okay. She's going to be alright." She whispered.

"I don't want to lose her. I love her." I sobbed.

"Come here love." She said as she motioned me to the waiting room, and sat me down in a chair.

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Five hours have passed and I still haven't heard anything from the doctors. They wouldn't allow me to go see her, they kept telling me to wait for the doctor. How can I wait when there's a possibility that I could lose the love of my life, and probably my unborn child?

I'm not giving in, I want you back.

Stole my heart away I can't let you go.

Counting the days to meet you on the other side, I will always be waiting.

I don't want her to leave me again. I just got her back. I was torn away from her once, I don't want to be again. Without her it was like a living hell in the pits of an inferno. I love her too much to lose her to death. My heart has been broken enough I don't know how much more pain I can take. I'm not ready to say goodbye,  I want her to stay with me. Always and forever right? that's how it's supposed to be when you're in love, not a tragic death. I can't help but to think if she's okay or not. I really can't because it's hard.

"Lana what if she doesn't make it. What am I going to do I need her so much." I sobbed.

She ran her fingers through my hair, while holding me close and wiping my tears away. She took a deep breath before he responded.

"I'm pretty sure she's going to make it love. Have faith. I believe that she's going to be okay. She may be a little bruised up but I just know that she'll heal." She said.

I sighed as I closed my eyes for a moment. I could feel fresh tears swelling into my eyes, but I try to hold them back because all I can do is hope. As another hour passed I began to worry again, and I couldn't help but to pace around the waiting room impatiently. Lana had to stop me from going back there multiple times, and she made me sit in the waiting room.

"TJ you have to be patient you can't go back there without permission."

"I don't care anymore. It's almost midnight and we still don't know anything. It should be a crime to wait this long to know if you're going to lose someone or not. It's not fair!"

"Shh shh calm down. Be patient I promise everything will be okay. don't cause a scene."

I laid my back and closed my eyes in frustration. I cannot take this anymore this is crazy. I'm about to lose my mind, and I'm not far from doing something stupid. I swear if Lana wasn't here I'd walk back there anyway, because I don't care anymore I really don't. After a few minutes had passed I heard a soft voice call my name. I opened my eyes and Dr.Alex was standing in front of me with a worried look on her face. She seemed terrified.

"Mr.Perkins?" She whispered.

My eyes widened and I quickly stood up to meet her gaze.

"Is she alright? please tell me." My voice quivered.

"She's going to be okay but she's very weak at the moment. She's stable right now, and we've given her some strong medicine to help her. As far as the wounds they will heal in no time, but I'm very concerned about her. She's lacking bodily fluids, and it seems she hasn't eating in days. Her body doesn't have enough nutrition." She explained.

"What about the baby? is it okay?" I asked.

"Yes the baby is okay, unfortunately it's not healthy either. If we can get her to eat something once she wakes up there may be a chance that the baby will live."

"Can we please go see her?" I pleaded

"Yes you may. But be gentle, she's very fragile right know." She confirmed.

I nodded my head at her as I lead the guys through the double doors of which I've been waiting to enter for hours. I quickly walked towards the ICU hallway impatiently until I started to running. I couldn't walk anymore, I felt the need to run to the love of my life. She needs me, and I need her more than ever.

When I finally got to the correct room I came to a complete stop. I grasped the doorknob slightly hesitating to take the first step. I took one final deep breath as I opened the door and looking upon my beautiful angel sound asleep peacefully as if heaven is waiting for her. I quickly approached her bed and grasped her soft cold hand and held it inside mine. I began to shed a tear as I leaned in and held her close me. I cried and cried as I held him in my arms. Her body felt light as feather, and her bones felt like icebergs hanging from a cave.

" Bella I love you. Please wake up for my sake. I can't live without you. Please for the sake of our child. I beg of you."

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