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Chapter XXX: Hear Me

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*TJ's POV*

"Bella will you please talk to me? I can't go another day without hearing your voice. Please I'm sorry." I begged.

Bella has been ignoring me since the other day when I told her the truth and said that I didn't believe her. She won't talk to me, and she won't let me touch her at all. It's like when I sit next to her to try to talk to her she'll just leave as if I'm a walking disease. When I tried to cuddle her in bed last night she said that if I didn't leave her alone he was either going to leave and sleep on the couch or put me on the couch, so I did what was best. I left to sleep on the couch so I wouldn't bother her anymore. I cried all night because all I wanted was her love and affection. How can you be mad at me for being honest? It would be completely wrong for me to just sit there and lie to her face, and I couldn't do that. I could never do that. Love is based on honesty in a relationship not lies. She should be happy that I was bold enough - even though it hurt me to pieces - to tell her the truth, because she needed to know. It's not like I was an asshole and said that she was crazy and that I don't believe her. I would understand if I did do that, but no I didn't. I was kind and gentle, and she took it the wrong way. What am I supposed to do? I won't lie to her like she lies to me, because it's not easy, and it's not supposed to be that way ever. The time where I need her more than ever, and she's not there for me when I'm here needing closure, and she's on the other side of the room being stubborn.

I've begged and pleaded what more do I need to do to win her love? I've even gotten on my knees multiple times begging her to please talk to me, and I've apologized countless times. I've done possibly everything that has ever been written, and none of it has worked. She gets worse and worse.

"Bella please talk to me. I love you, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you. I'm sorry if I hurt you, just please forgive me." I begged.

"TJ please I don't feel very well, and I need you to please give me some space." She said.

"Space? Bella please ........all I want is for us to be close again. We don't even talk anymore." I whined.

"I have a terrible headache, and my stomach kind of hurts. Can you please just move so I can go take an aspirin and lay down? I'd appreciate it if you did that."

I frowned as I grew closer to her, looking into those tired eyes of hers. I placed my hand on her belly and rubbed it gently.

"Is the baby okay? Are you okay? Bella talk to me, I want to take care of you." I whispered.

She didn't say anything, she just gave me a weird look.

"Don't touch me." She mumbled as she pushed me to the side and walked upstairs.

I sighed deeply and followed her. At one point I had thought that this was one of her mood swings but for her to constantly ignore me for three days is insane. She knows I will go crazy for her, and apparently she has absolutely NO idea how horrible it feels when the love of your life ignores you. It's like she hates me for telling the truth, which is crazy because I thought I did the right thing. I really did. God, if only she knew how much this is killing me. How can she not feel bad about this? when did she stop caring about us....or about me. What about our daughter? What the hell is going on with Bella? it's like I don't know her anymore, she's turned into a different person. Where is the woman that I proposed to? The woman I fell in love with is somewhere behind that mask. The mask that has forsaken our love into depths of damnation. Without her love I feel as if I've fallen into the burning pits of hell, and I saw the devil himself.

I'm all alone, and she's not here for me. She walks away from me taking my every emotion with her. She took all of my tears, and my happiness with her. When she's happy, then I'm happy. When she's sad, I become sad. I know it sounds funny, but it's how we're connected as one. Something has taken her away from me, forcing her to reject my apologies. It's like she took a dagger and stabbed me through my heart letting it bleed out. She left a hole in my heart.