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Epilogue

*TJ's POV*

It's been three days since I watched orderlies take Bella away from me, and since then I've been worried about her. Every night I toss and turn wondering if she's being treated properly, and if she's really receiving the help that she really needs. I've been asking myself if what I did was the right thing because the way she said that I betrayed him, hurt me deeply and I can't get over it. Deep down in my heart I feel as if she hates me now, and I feel that if she were to see me she wouldn't become so happy. I've told her so many times that I loved her, because I needed her to know that I'm here for her no matter what happens, and that she has the key to my heart. I nearly die inside every time I think of when she first started losing her mind, and when she started hallucinating. When it all started happening I started falling to pieces, and I began to break apart and shatter down to the floor. I can't bare the number of times that I almost lost her.

I think to myself every now and then reminding myself that she is in a safe place, and that she's being taken care of. She's with me in my heart always, and I know that she will do well. But I ask myself these questions everyday wondering if what I did was right. Was it really the only way? Was it really worth it? The truth is that sometimes I don't know what to think anymore, and sometimes I tend to disagree with myself, and there are other times where I agree with what I did. I sit down in front of a mirror and I look at myself. I look into those fearful irises of mine and I always wonder how I survived through all of this. How did I not give up on him? How did I become so strong? It's hard to answer all of these questions because of the unusual things that I witnessed, and it's become a nightmare. Will it ever end?

~ The End ~