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Chapter XXXV: Overdose

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*TJ's POV*

As I grabbed a tray from the cafeteria line , I knew deep down in my heart that something has gone wrong. I know that I should've stayed with Bella no matter what the nurse said, because there's not a doubt in my mind that I don't trust her anymore. I'm not ashamed to admit that she's completely lost it, and there's no hope for her. She has too much pride to admit that her mind is just gone, and her sanity has vanished. I don't know who this woman is anymore. Who is this woman that I call myself being in love with? Who is this woman that I made love to? Tell me have I fallen in love with a madman? Indeed I have. A madman willing to take her own life, and just leave me. She's a madman of the night, and there isn't a doubt about that. Who is this woman that is lying in this hospital bed? Tell me who is she? Do I belong to her? Are we supposed to be in love? I beg someone to please tell me who this woman is that I call mine.

I just stared at my food not wanting to eat, because of the way I feel right now. My hands are shaking in fear, and my heart is racing. I can't breathe, nor can I catch a single breath. Something is not right, I can feel it in my veins. It's not long before I start panicking sending my blood pressure up sky high, almost wanting to vomit my guts out. God please help me!

I suddenly hear the sound of footsteps running quickly past the cafeteria, and I turn around and notice that it was a group of nurses in blue scrubs along with a doctor that looked exactly like Alex. They were running towards down the hall where Bella's room is, and somehow I believe they were heading down to her room. I gasped, and I quickly stood up nearly knocking my chair down and I began running out of the cafeteria behind them. As I followed them I was becoming closure and closure to her room, and sure enough that is exactly where we all ended up.

When I got there the nurses were all huddled in a group looking down. I rushed in pushing every single one of them to the side, and I felt my heart nearly drop down into stomach at the frightful sight in my eyes.

"Bella!" I screamed as I fell to my knees beside her.

I held her hand inside mine feeling the coolness in her palm, hoping I could get a pulse. Unfortunately I couldn't, and I pressed my ear against her chest searching and hoping to hear that beautiful heartbeat of hers, but alas there was nothing. I looked at her pale face seeing the dried up white foam that spilled from her mouth, and I just began to hurt even worse than before. And then I looked over and saw an half empty pill bottle in her other hand spilling out the remaining pills onto the floor. She broke her promise to me......

"Bella please answer me! Don't do this to me I need you! I love you....." I cried out.

As I pulled her into my arms, I felt someone wrap their arms around me trying to drag me away. I looked up and it was nurse Rebecca.

"Mr.Perkins please come with me, it's not safe." She said calmly.

"No please she needs me! I can't leave her!" I sobbed.

Before I knew it, I could feel myself being dragged by arms on the floor into the hallway in defeat, being placed against the wall in front of the room. Soon they had all picked her up, and gently laid her on the bed, and they started to pump her stomach free of the drugs that she took. I worried even more when I saw how much they had to keep pumping her stomach . Suddenly I heard a loud gasp. . She was breathing again. I slowly stood up, and walked inside towards the bed, and I placed my hand on top of her. She cracked her eyes open just a little, and she let out a single tear. I wiped her tear away and I planted a kiss on her forehead. She then began to whisper something to me.

"TJ I can't do this anymore. Stop trying to save me...."

"Don't say that Bella you can do this. Don't give up on me now."

"I'm sorry. But I Must. End. My. Life. "

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