~ Bella's POV ~
He as master, you the tamed
From reticence he will thrive
Forsake this grinning malice
For the beast that rides...
Within his soul, fast approaches
Your flesh is his goal
Affliction by foul callous tongue
Bequeath him his elation
Shrivel in his presence not
Nor dictations of this coward......
My god my insides are burning, and I feel so sick as if I want to vomit but I can't. Even though they pumped all of the drugs out of my system I still burn, and foam at the mouth. I've been trying to toss and turn but it's like something is restraining me from doing so. I feel something tight wrapped around my wrists, and I feel as if I'm bound to this bed. As if it's not meant for me to move at all. I leaned over to the side of the bed once more, and I'm suddenly restrained hard against the bed nearly banging my head against the pillow. My eyes shot open looking down at my wrists noticing that they were strapped down, and red.
Hence whilst you are the demure
You shall remain the reward
This seducer of malevolence
Deems you perpetually his own
He shall relish in delight
This madman of the night
You want to leave?
Come follow me
His decadence is taking over
You have the chance to run from in........
I look around the room for my love TJ, but he's no where to be found. He's not even sitting in his usual spot in the chair next to me. Where is he ? I need him. I need him to be right here beside me, it's not like him to not be here. I'm all alone in this dark room, and the only light here is outside in the hall shining where my door is cracked. I started becoming anxious and nervous, because I don't like this feeling. I don't like not being able to be free. I feel trapped, bound, and claustrophobic. I feel as if I'm about to go mad soon, and I can feel this anger overcoming me by the second. I'm so frightened that I feel something taking over me, it's like I'm turning into a monster
You have the chance to run from indignity
This is your life
You have a right
He wants to ravish, punish you, do what he wants
Elated by your sufferings
Let him subsist in iniquity
Flee from the perils of his offerings
And of all else he hath found guilty
Eyes that lead to a nefarious mind
Beseech you to enter in
Tormented & damaged you're caught in his
world.......
I let out a bloodcurdling scream, and I began to kick my feet into the air trying to break free but I failed. I started crying my eyes out letting the tears constantly flow down my face wetting my cheeks, turning my eyes bloodshot. I suddenly gave up, and just sat back sobbing. How could he do this to me? How could he let them do this to me?
"Bella?" a soft voice said.
I looked up and saw that it was TJ standing beside the door with his arms folded with a depressed look on his face. He was also crying. He began to approach me and placed a warm caring warm hand on my forehead, and ran his fingers through my hair.
"TJ how could you?" I sobbed
"It was only for the best Bella. You're getting out of control." He replied.
"W-What? No! no I'm not!" I raised my voice at him.
TJ took his hand and covered my mouth, and pressed a single finger gently on my lips telling me to quiet down.
"Shh shh baby you know I love you I do. But I'm scared for you. I'm scared that I'm going to wake up one day and find you dead. I'm not going to let that happen. I value your life so much, and you mean the world to me. There's only one you in this world and I want you to stay. If you love me then you'd get better not worse. I know you miss our baby girl, I do too but you have to realize that she's in a better place. She's in good hands Bella I promise. She's in heaven right now watching you, and I don't think she would want you to act this way. " He explained.
"TJ please I -
"Shh shh I have to go now. " He whispered.
My heart started beating rapidly when he said those words, letting my hand go slowly. How could he do this to me? he promised to never leave me alone. I need him.
"TJ please don't leave me! please I beg you!" I started screaming.
"Shh. I love you okay. You'll see me tomorrow." He whispered once more before he left.
"TJ! don't go....." I wept in sorrow.
Within that moment I started kicking and screaming around feeling these straps turning my wrists even more redder than before.
You long freedom from his mordant words
You want to leave?
Come follow me
His decadence is taking over
You have the chance to run from indignity
This is your life
You have a right
Don't look back as you will reminisce on good times
And forget about that poisoned kiss and forgive him
~ 🌹 ~
*TJ 's POV*
It nearly killed me to leave him like that. I never thought I'd have to do that .....ever. I miss her so much already. What have I done? the way she was kicking and screaming in those straps scared me. It was like he turned into a madman over midnight. I feel as if I've betrayed her, and broke her heart. But the doctor said it was the only way, and if she doesn't get better and change his ways, then they might have to send her to an mental institution. I fear for her life so much, because want her to be well so bad. Bella how'd you become so evil and twisted? What happened to the sweet woman I fell in love with? The sweet woman I was going to marry........
His decadence is taking over
You have the chance to run from indignity
This is your life
You have a right
Run! .... Run! .... Run!
~ 🌹 ~
( A/N: I was not able to find the song on for the lyrics above in italics on YouTube, so I'm not able to post the song here although I do have it in my playlist from iTunes but again I apologize for the lack of music. ♥)
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