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Chapter XXV: My Love Please Answer Me

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*TJ's POV*

It's been a few hours since the doctor let me see Bella . I'm still holding her hand waiting for that moment when she grasps mine. I'm hoping with everything in my heart that she'll wake up. There hasn't been a second that I haven't called or whispered her name hoping she'd answer me. I will not let go of her hand until I know she's awake.

"Bella I know you're not listening but I want you to know that I love you so much, and I need you. I'm not ready for you to spread your wings and fly away from home yet. Remember all the times I held you when you cried? Well I did, and I enjoyed every moment of it and I'll never regret it. You know you broke my heart when you ran away. Those days I spent without you being completely clueless as to knowing where you were, could've been days that we could've spent with each other. Why did you give up me? Better yet why did you give up on us? I thought we had a good thing going. Did you forget how I told you that I love you every second of the day? I said those words to you everyday because I was so scared that I might lose you, and I was scared that you didn't believe me. Bella  no matter what happens always know that I've always loved you, and that my heart will never stop beating for you. I want this wedge that's been driven between us to disappear, because I want you back. I want you back in my arms, I want you to come back to me." I sobbed

Tears were falling down my face, and I became more and more devastated. My love why won't you answer me? She's just so beautiful laying there peacefully. I just wish she'd come back to me. I know I haven't lost her, because I can still feel her love surrounding me. My love I need you answer me, I need to know if you're still here. My love I'm not ready for you to go to heaven. Heaven can wait a little longer, because I need you the most. I need you for the sake of our child. Our child's life is at stake too, I can't risk to lose the both of you. You're the only ones I have. If I lose both of you then I have nothing to live for. Where will I be without your kisses and your hugs? Where will I be without your love? Who will love me like you have? no one will, because they aren't you Bella . If I had a voice I would sing you a lullaby, but all I have is a heart full of love to give.

Your grace appeals to me. Everything from your heart to your soul is an absolute gift that I cherish to have and keep. Save me from heartbreak and answer me. Save me from tears and please answer me. The sound of your voice, and the grasp of your hand will give me hope, and keep me sane. I don't want to be alone, and I'm too young to be a widow. You're my angel from above, and you'll always be no matter what.

I leaned closer to the hospital bed, and brushed the hair out of Bella's face and tucked it behind her ear. I pressed my lips against her cold pale face. I pulled back and just looked at her. A single tear fell down her cheek.

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[ A Poem For Bella ]

My love,

My rose.

I can't lose you for you are a apart of me. The puzzle that completes me. With you gone I bleed the blood of loneliness. You are the heart of the everything, the blood that pumps into my veins, and keeps my heart beating for more.

The thorn,

The stem ,

Drowning in the river of sorrow, saved by you. Save me from the sadness. Save me from heartbreak. Wash away the pain with a little rain, and keep sane. My sweet serendipity like a white dove flying across the blue sky. I'll die without you.

My Child....

You bare a child of mine. I love her so dearly. Let heaven wait a little longer and stay with me. Stay with me and I promise I won't let you down. Screaming the sound of hurt and pain letting it kill me softly.

Drinking the sweet nectar of an elixir, red as blood, but potent as love. Pure as water, with a clear eyesight. It is plain to see that you belong to me.

My love answer me if you dare. Answer my cries, for my sense of hope. Answer my sorrow, answer me if you care. My love hear me.....

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I kissed her salty tear away, and grasped her hand a little tighter holding it against my beating heart. My eyes widened as I heard a deep breath take place. The blood in my veins began pulsing making my heart beat faster than it ever did. A single breath took place in his body, and a single heartbeat sang out loud in her chest. That's when it happened.

I let out a loud gasp as I felt her hand squeeze tightly against mine. I held onto his hand and came closer to him. That's when I heard a whisper. The whisper of a voice that I've longed to hear for almost an eternity.

"TJ?" it whispered.

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