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Chapter XL: Locked Away

*TJ's POV*

{12:00 PM in the Evening}

It is time. I never thought it would ever come to this, but my love life is at stake and she needs help. I can no longer let her go on like this it's not healthy. I can't lose her anymore then what I have. I know in my heart that she will hate me for this but it's for her own good. I trust that this is the only way for her to get well. I bind her from doing harm to himself, and I had hope to see her well.

My heart nearly shattered to pieces when I saw the orderly carrying a straitjacket in his hand, and I'm trying my hardest not to cry again. I followed Dr.Alex and two orderlies wearing white scrubs down the hall to his room. When we got there they insisted that I go in first so she won't suspect a thing, and sure enough when I walked in she was laying there strapped down to the gurney, all scratched up, but she was still as a statue. When she opened her eyes and looked at me, she tried to crack a smile but she couldn't. Poor thing was trying to show me that she was strong, and that she's hanging in there. I approached her slowly to the side of her bed gently placing a single hand on her cheek.

" Bella my love." I whispered as I leaned in to place a kiss on her forehead.

"TJ I missed you so much. Why'd you leave me here?" she asked as he frowned.

"I-I had to. They needed me to leave you so they can run tests on you. I was only able to come visit, and when I did you were asleep the majority of the time." I began to cry.

"Why are you crying? I don't understand.  Don't cry I'm okay see look at me." She whispered.

As I started releasing fresh tears from my eyes, I lightly chuckled planting another small kiss on her forehead.

"N-No you're not baby. I'm so worried about you. I almost lost you." I whispered.

"But I'm still here aren't I? I didn't go anywhere." She said.

"I know you didn't go anywhere love but I don't know if you're here mentally babe." I said

After a while there was silence between us. I just stared into those blue eyes full of worry and hurt. I tucked her loose raven hair behind her ears, and I held her close to me in my arms for one last time.

"I love you." She said.

"I love you too baby." I answered.

"TJ?" he said.

"Yes love?" I answered.

"Am I going home?" she asked.

I paused for a few minutes before answering her. I didn't know how to tell her, and it nearly kills me knowing that I have to do this. I have no other choice it's the only way I know.

"TJ?" She said again.

I couldn't tell him. I can't do it it's too hard for me. She'll hate me forever, I know he'll never forgive me for me this but all I want is for him to get better. He knows that love him always, but his health comes first and foremost.

"TJ  please answer me." She started to demand.

Before I could answer her Dr.Alex and the orderlies had suddenly walked in. I slowly parted away from my dearest Bella, as I noticed the frightened look on her face along with a look of betrayal.

"TJ what is this?" she asked.

"I'm sorry but it's only for your own good Bella. I couldn't let you go on like this. I was scared, and you're constantly hurting yourself inflicting pain." I started sobbing.

"How could you do this to me? I thought you loved me......you lied to me! You lied to me TJ!" she started sobbing.

"Bella I'm sorry! I never meant to hurt you I just wanted you to get better. You're not stable and you know it. Everyday you were constantly losing your mind and it was scaring me. I couldn't let you go on like this. I love you and you know I do." I cried.

"If you loved me then you wouldn't be doing this! You know you lied to me! you know you did! And you're still lying to me! you betrayed me! how could you betray me TJ?! how could you?!"She screamed.

As the orderlies had started unstrapping her, she started kicking and screaming at them not to touch her.

"Don't fucking touch me! get the hell away from me!" she continued to scream.

They managed to get a good grip on her, and put the straitjacket on her torso, and put a pair of white pants on her legs. After they were done both me had each grabbed Bella's arms and picked him up and started making their way towards the hall.

"No! TJ please don't let them take me! Don't let them take me away!!"

" Bella please listen to me everything will okay I promise." I whispered.

"No please don't do this to me.........I love you!" she cried.

"I love you too." I said.

The men had finally made their way into the hall and began walking towards the double doors. I stood there in the middle of the hall, with both of my hands covering my mouth as I constantly sobbed watching them take her away from me listening to her screams.

"TJ!" I heard her scream down the hall.

I sobbed even harder, falling hard on my knees onto the floor.

~ 💀 ~

After watching the most painful moment of my life I just spent the rest of the day crying my eyes out. I had gathered all of her clothes from the hospital room and took them home with me. It was done, she's now in a place that can help her become stable again.