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Chapter XVI: Burden

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*Bella's POV *

It's been a couple of days since TJ has talked to me. He's been quiet lately, and kind of avoiding me. This silence is killing me softly, and I don't know how much more of it I can take. It's hell when the love of your life is ignoring you, because of something horrible you've done. I can't bring myself to talk to him about it because I fear that he truly hates me. I fear that he will leave me soon. I've truly messed up what I had, because no one will ever love me as much he does. I think my time is up here. I need to leave. I've been around too long, and it's time for me for to leave. I don't know where I'm going, but I will find a safe place. There's no hope. Hope is gone.

As I slowly got out of bed, I made my way towards the bathroom to take a shower. After I had taken a shower and put some clothes on I grabbed a piece of paper and pen. I sat down at the kitchen table and began writing a letter to TJ. I can't stay here anymore, I have to leave. The longer my presence is here the more I'm going to hurt him even more. What I did is unforgivable, and I don't deserve to be forgiven. I am a monster.

I am a burden to TJ, and I can't stay here and continue to make him miserable. As I write my goodbye letter the I wipe my tears away because I know it's only for the best. If I could go back in time I would change the past, but I can't dwell on it. It's already done. Now it's time for the future to take it's toll.

After I finished writing my last goodbye to the love of my life I placed it on a spot where I know he'll see it whenever he comes home. I took one more look around reminiscing, and taking all of my memories locking them inside the chambers of my heart. I walked out of that front door and never looked back.

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