Suicidal

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Sabrina:

I wake up to Peyton's arms wrapped around me tightly.
"Peyton you're hurting me" I tell him and he wakes up
"Can you loosen your grip" I ask he nods and removes his arms
I sit up and the nurse comes in

"How are you feeling" she asks. Suicidal.

"Great, actually I'm feeling so much better thank you" I say with a big fake smile

"That's good to hear that you're getting better, you know depression isn't easy" she says and I shrug
"You need to take these" she tells me placing two pills in my hand

"What are they" I ask and she smiles

"One is for your vitamins the other is for depression" she says and opens a bottle of water

I take the pills and she checks a few things before leaving
I put the Water bottle aside and I play with the needle in my arm

"Sabrina stop" Peyton tells me and I look at him
He removes my hand and hands me a rubix cube. I start to solve it. After a minute I've finished it and I put it back.

"Hey we need to go through some therapists and Peyton your mom wants you home" my mom says walking in

"I'll see you later okay" Peyton tells me I nod and he kisses my forehead before grabbing his shoes and leaving

"I don't need a therapist mom" I tell her and she sits next to me

"Honey you need to talk about it, dealing with it yourself isn't going to help you. Please try it for me" she asks and I nod

She looks through them with me and soon we decide on a middle aged woman.
"Where's dad" I ask and she shrugs

"I don't know, I'm sorry that he hasn't been here with you" she says and I shrug

"It's fine I guess" I reply and there's a knock on the door I look seeing my dad

"Is everything okay" he asks we nod and he sits on a chair "Beth do you mind leaving I want to speak with Sabrina alone" he says mom nods kissing my cheek

"I'll go to the cafeteria, do you want anything" she asks I shake my head and she leaves the room.

"Why did you do it" he asks and I look at him.
I shrug and he sighs "tell me" he says and I look away

"Because I just want to die" I reply and some tears fall
"There's no point in living if no one is going to miss you when you're gone, because they dont care" I add

"What makes you think that" he asks and I shrug
I ignore him and turn my back to him
"Sabrina answer me" he yells and I hear the hear monitor start beeping faster and I feel my eyes start to fog up

"What's going on in here" someone asks and that's when I pass out.