Suicidal

18

Peyton-

I arrive in Texas and I go to my grandparents house.

"Lucas what are you doing here" my Grandma asks

"I need advice" I tell her and I sit down on the couch with her and my grandpa

"What's up" he asks

"Well there's this girl I really liked and I got the impression that she liked me. My friends were saying about how obvious it was that she liked me so I asked her and she said that she didn't and we got into this fight and-" I begin to ramble

"Start from the beginning, who is this girl" Grandma asks

"Sabrina Carpenter, she's a freshman but is in all senior classes. She doesn't really talk loud it's always just above a whisper, she just said it was always like that. Anyway the whole school hates her for no reason, her ex boyfriend always threatens her and her sisters abuse her and scream at her and her father doesn't care about her. She's suicidal all the time, she tried committing suicide and got rushed into hospital. Last night when we were together I asked if she liked me she kept saying no and I got really angry and upset with her for some reason and I started yelling and screaming at her saying things that I didn't mean. She tried explaining but I wouldn't let her she wanted me to stay with her but I didn't I left her there alone knowing that she couldn't be left alone" I explain and my grandma looks worried

"You said her relationship with her father isn't the best right" she asks and I nod "and her ex is abusive towards her" she asks and I nod once again "Peyton every guy in her life has turned her down. If your mom stopped talking to you and your ex girlfriend started threatening you. Would you admit feelings to someone you started to trust" she asks and I shake my head

"I wouldn't want to say anything to ruin the bond" I reply and then I realise what I've done to her

"This reminds me of your grandma and I" Grandma says and I look at him
"Your grandma dealt with a lot of depression and bullying. I moved into town just across the street and our parents got along really well so we were forced to spend our days with each other. Everything was going great until feelings were getting developed, your grandma couldn't handle the thought of me not liking her back and her losing out on a best friend that she tried to overdose.
We got into the biggest fight and here we are sixty years later happier than ever" he explains

"But I've totally screwed everything up. There are rumours about her and I told her that I thought they were true just to hurt her, it was like it wasn't even me who was talking. I didn't mean any of the things" I tell them and my grandma sighs

"You've messed up" she tells me and I nod "that girl is probably breaking down crying every second, you've broke her even more. I know you didn't mean it but she thinks you did. Trust is a hard thing to earn and breaking that trust ruins everything" she tells me and I look down

"It's late why don't we talk more about this tomorrow, go on up to bed" Grandpa tells me I nod getting up

I go to my room and I lay down taking my phone. I click on Sabrina's contact.

Me- Sabrina I am so so sorry about what I did. I didn't mean any of it and I regret everything. I shouldn't have lashed out on you like that and I most certainly shouldn't have walked out on you. Please call or text me. Xxx

*sorry but this user has blocked you, your chat will be pending until you are unblocked*

I feel tears leave my eyes as I read it
I keep trying but nothing.