Suicidal

19

Sabrina-

I wake up and check my phone seeing no messages or anything. I turn seeing my mom next to me just like she promised.
"Hey we're going to have a little chat with dad" she tells me I nod and we get out of bed

"I really miss him" I say looking at the necklace

"I know baby" she says and I feel tears in my eyes
"Don't cry" she says but they already start falling and I'm crying hard

"My heart aches so much" I tell her and she hugs me tight

"I know it'll be okay soon I promise" she tells me and we start making our way downstairs where my dad is with Shannon and Sarah.

"You sleep okay" Paps asks I nod and he hugs me
"Don't cry little Bee" he says and I try stopping but it doesn't work

"Pathetic" Shannon mumbles loudly

"I'm warning you" Nana says and I pull away from Paps

"We were going to make you breakfast but your parents are taking you out" Paps tells me and I nod.

"Okay" I say and sniffle

"I got some clothes set out for you in the bathroom, keep the door open" Nana tells me I nod walking into the bathroom

I start showering and I hear them talking
"You can at least treat her normal again" Paps says

"It's not that easy, what she did hurt herself. I don't want that for her" Nana replies and I feel more tears leaving my eyes

I look at all the scars on my wrists and thighs and I look into the mirror.

I get out of the shower drying myself and dressing quickly
I wash my face trying to clear the tears but nothing works.

"Fat, ugly, unloved, whore, you don't deserve anything, just die make the world happy" I whisper to myself

Beth:

We're all waiting in the kitchen for Sabrina to finish showering.
"She's been a while" my mom says and I look towards the door.

I hear her scream and there's a thud.
We all run inside and she's yelling things and the mirror is smashed
"Sabrina" I say taking her arms David takes the knife out of her hand.
"It's okay baby, I got you it's okay" I try and calm her.

"I want to die" she cries and I kiss her forehead

"Everything is going to get better" I tell her and she passes out.
I look up and even Shannon is looking worried.

"Mom she's bleeding" Sarah tells me and takes Sabrina's arm

W. H. O. R. E

"Why is she doing this to herself" Sarah asks as we take her into the living room

"She has depression and where she's being bullied it's making her suicidal" I tell her and Sabrina starts to wake up

"Mommy" she asks I nod and hug her

"Yes it's me, your okay" I say and she cries lightly

"I'm sorry, i need help" she tells me and I kiss her head

"We are getting you all the help you need to get better, you will get better I promise" I say and she looks at the others.

"Are you Okay" Shannon asks and she shakes her head

"No" she says and breaks down crying. "No I'm not" she adds and I look for her phone.

I find it in her pocket and I see Peyton hasn't tried to reach out to her.
I wrap my arms around her as she cries in my arms.

I think Shannon and Sarah are starting to realise that this isn't a game Sabrina is playing and that it is real life.