Suicidal

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Sabrina:

"Hey it's time to get up" my mom says shaking me

I look at her and pull the blanket over my face
"I'll be down in a sec" I tell her and I hear her chuckle before leaving

I get out of bed and I get dressed before walking downstairs hearing my sisters talking with my dad as usual

I reach the end of the stairs and my mom looks at me
"Hey We're going shopping today" she tells me I nod and sit in my seat

"I'm going to get ready" Shannon says glaring at me

"Yeah me too" Sarah says and they leave

My mom places my breakfast and pills in front of me and I pour myself some orange juice

She sits down and starts to eat
"I have a dance competition, tomorrow Will you guys be able to come" I ask them and they look at me

"What time sweetie" my mom asks and I shrug

"I think it's 5:20" I tell her and she frowns

"I'm at work. Is there any other days I can go see" she asks and I shake my head
"Well your father will go won't you" she asks turning to him

"Sure" he says and I smile

"Can we leave now" Sarah asks and we finish our breakfast before leaving

My dad drives us there and I sit in the back next to Shannon

She hits me slyly and I hold in the pain
"What's wrong Bri" my mom asks looking at me

I shake my head looking down and she sighs
"She doesn't feel too good" Shannon lies and rubs my arm

"Do you want some water" my mom asks and I shake my head

"Leave her alone honey" my dad tells her and I look up seeing he has a pissed off look on his face

We reach the mall and my mom hands the girls $100 each

They walk away and I stay with my mom as we walk around stores
"How about this" she asks showing me a black and white dress

I nod and scan around the shop
I find white heels and give them to her

I take a white purse giving it to her
"You're a star" she says and tries them on

She walks out and I smile
"It looks great" I say and she hugs me

"Let's go buy you something" she says going back into the stall to change

Once she comes out she pays and we go into a different store which is designer

"I won't be able to get anything" I tell and she smiles

"My treat. The girls get all the time" she replies and we look around the room

I find a white crop top and I pair it with denim shorts
I take black wedges and my mom looks
"Go try it on" she tells me I nod and walk inside the stall

I change into them and I look at my fatness

"How is it" my mom asks and I open the curtain
"You look great" she says and I shake my head

"I'm fat" I tell her and she gasps

"Don't you dare call yourself that again" she warns I nod and close the curtain changing back into my clothes
I walk out with the clothes in my hand She takes them from me and pays for them

"Have a good day" the cashier says handing my mom the clothes

"Thank you" she says handing me the bag
"Do you want a ring or anything" she asks pointing to them

"No it's fine" I say and she shushes me

"Can I get two of the white gold rings one with mom the other with daughter" she asks and I look around the shop

I see Peyton with his friends, Sarah and Shannon are with them and Shannon's glaring at me
"What size are you" my mom asks and I shrug

"I don't know" I say and she smiles

"Can we get her finger measured" she asks and he nods

He takes my hand and measures one finger
He takes a ring and slides it on

He tilts my hand and the rings falls off
"I'll try the smallest one" he says taking another ring and puts it on

He tilts my hand and it stays on
"Would you like it in a box" he asks and my mom shakes her head

"No that's fine" she says and pays for it

"Sabrina hey" I hear Peyton I turn and he's standing beside me

"Hi" I say and I see my mom smile then walks away

"Are you doing anything tomorrow" he asks and I nod

"Yeah I have a dance competition sorry" I say and he frowns

"Oh okay, is your parents going" he asks

"My Dad said he would but I'm not sure" I reply and he smiles

"Well can I come" he asks and I nod

"Sure. I have to go" I say and he nods

I walk away and find my mom with my dad
"Me and Sabs are going into the skin care shop. Are you coming" she asks and he nods

We walk in and I see the face mask I always use

I go over and take one
I hand it to my mom and she looks around taking some hair vitamins

She pays for them and we go to find Shannon and Sarah

"Have you guys bought anything" Dad asks them and Shannon shakes her head

"There was these shoes I really liked but I didn't have enough to buy them" Shannon says and he nods

"How much are they" he asks her

"No David she has every week today is Sabrina's day where she gets" mom says and Shannon glares at me

"It's shoes Beth and Sabrina gets stuff all the time" he says and hands Shannon extra money

"Really?" My Mom asks loudly and I see Peyton with his friends starting to walk this way

"Yes, name one thing they have and she doesn't" he asks and my mom shakes her head

"Your attention" she says simply and he rolls his eyes

"She does get my attention I'm going to her stupid dance competition tomorrow aren't I?" He asks and I look away from them

"Oh well done you are actually willing to do something for her. Where was you on her birthday, where was you when she was in hospital in a coma" she yells and takes my hand

She starts walking and I keep looking down
"I'm sorry" I say and she wraps her arms around me

"Don't Be Sorry. It's not your fault" she says hugging me close

We walk out of the mall and she calls a cab home