for the better. | grayson dolan ✔

fourteen.

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i looked into her eyes, they were sad and her cheeks had tear stains on them.

suddenly i felt bad, really bad.

i had treated her like trash and now i was gonna tell her why i was like this, what happened to her. 

i know what happened wasn't an excuse to behave this way, but i couldn't help it.

i sighed, "well, you're wondering why i'm like this?" i start. she merely looks at me, slowly nodding for me to continue.

how am i supposed to tell her this? she's probably gonna run away. i wouldn't blame her.

"well...." i tried to say it, but i couldn't, she didn't need to know anyway. i yell at myself, she should know why i'm treating her like trash and why ill continue to do so.

i laughed to myself and mentally slapped myself for even considering to tell her. who is she even? just because ethan is her friend im forced to be there too.

"you don't need to know" i suddenly say, surprising myself. she looks up, hurt. a tear slips down her cheek and she silently leaves the room, slamming the door in the process.

way to be silent!

i lay back down and think back to that day, it still hurts me inside and i have to admit, i sometimes cry secretly because i know it was all my fault.

not ethan's, not alex's, not jack's, it was my fault. i push the sad thoughts out of my mind and slowly doze off.

ashley

"hun?" my mom whispers, opening my room door. i look up from my history assignment and send her a fake smile.

"hey mom! what's up?" i ask, a little too cheery.
she raises her eyebrow and sits at the edge of my bed, puting her hand over mine that was still hovering over the laptop touch pad.

"i know it's hard, with ethan and grayson in the hospital, but the police have brent in custody and he's going to jail. you've been so strong this whole time, i'm so proud of you" She says smiling. i smiled back, "i know Mom, but ethan woke up so i got to talk to him, even though he couldn't talk back" i say laughing.

she laughs too, "you and ethan are so cute!"

i roll my eyes, laughing, "mom! we're just friends!"

she gets up and walks to the door, "that's what they all say!" she says sarcastically and closing the door behind her.

i sigh and lay back onto my pillows, i'm so done with this assignment right now. since it wasn't due for a few days, i decide to put on some comfy pyjamas and watch stranger things season 2 since i haven't started it yet and alexis  has been begging me to watch.

i snapchat a video of me watching it and send it to alexis before laying back to watch.

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"ash! honestly!" i hear annie yell. i bolt upright and see her standing there, her hands on her hips, "mom's been calling you for the past 30 mins, the twins' sister is dropping you off today and you're already late!" and with that, she marches out of the room. a few moments later i hear her room door slam.

she's been snappy lately

i quickly get dressed into some black skinny ripped jeans, a white t-shirt that had a small nike logo on the chest along with a black cap with a white nike sign on it. i did some simple makeup, mascara and lip gloss before grabbing my phone and backpack, running to the kitchen.

"hey ash!" cam said from the table, my mom had probably let her in.

"hey!" i replied, sitting and scarfing down my cereal.

"it's okay! we wont be late, take your time!" cam said laughing as she watched me struggle to swallow the spoonful in my mouth. i slowed down and went through my instagram as i ate. normal posts and stuff.

one post caught my eye, a girl from school, i think her name is leeane, kissing grayson on the cheek in his hospital room. the caption: 'hope my baby feels better 🥰'

for some reason i wanted to cry.

Hey so that was today's chapter! Hope Y'all enjoyed. Anyway PEACE! (Tomorrow is Tuesday!)