for the better. | grayson dolan ✔

forty-three

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i woke up after what felt like hours, i was laying in my bed with a bandage wrapped around my wrist.

i opened my eyes and looked around my room. sunlight poured into the room through the open window, a warm breeze tickled my feet.

the door was closed and the bathroom door was locked, a red tissue poking out from the bottom of the door.

i thought of getting up but decided against it, i wanted to sleep. my eyes started to shut until there was a soft knock on the door. amber walked in and stopped at the foot of the bed, her eyes red and puffy.

i bit my lip nervously and looked elsewhere.

"you're just going to act like nothing happened?" she whispered, her voice shaking.

i looked back at her and tried to speak but nothing came out.

"what were you thinking?" she asked, a little harsh this time.

"sorry" was all i managed to say, she said nothing and left the room.

i lay there and thought, grayson liked me and i liked him but i knew he was gonna end up hurting me

i had just told my best friend to pretend i never knew him

i had let down my other best friends and my mom would freak if she found out.

i laid in bed for the rest of the day and only got up to use the washroom, amber didn't come back in at all.

1 WEEK LATER

things are getting back to normal. i returned to my library job, the girls moved back and my mother seemed to be smiling again.

life was good, as of now.

i still hadn't mended my relationship with ethan and felt bad everytime i thought about it.

honestly, Amber wasn't here so he couldn't hurt her, right?

the girls had promised to come during the summer to visit and my mom allowed them to stay with us for the summer.

as for grayson, it hurt me everytime i saw him with leanne or some other girl day after day.

he would look at me but turn away or roll his eyes. school was ending in a week and i slowly got up to get ready for the day.

"hurry!!" my mom yelled from downstairs,

i jumped the stairs and ran out the door to see her in the car.

"sorry mom" i panted, out of breath.

we drove to school and she dropped me off. i hadn't been to school for the past week becuase of...you know. my mom still didn't know and i had begged maddy not to tell her and always made sure my sleeve covered my wrist.

i took a deep breath before opening the car door.

"bye, i love you!" my mom said and drove away.

i had a strong urge to run after her and go home, spend the day in bed watching run or just random youtube videos, maybe rewatch bon voyage, again.

basically what i had done the past week.

"hey" i heard a voice behind me,

i looked over to see alex standing there, ethan's friend. why'd he want to talk to me all of the sudden, ethan had probably sent him here. 

"if ethan sent you here, please leave" i said, rolling my eyes and walking away.

"he didn't" he said, catching up to me.