for the better. | grayson dolan ✔

twenty-three

Sorry I wasn't able to update the last few days! I was really busy with school and didn't get anytime to update. Hope you understand! :)

edit: i like to leave the little notes i wrote while i was writing this book to remind me how cringe i was 😳

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"sure.." i replied slowly, looking down at my hands and fiddling with my fingers.

what could he possibly want to ask me?

"why do you hate me so much?" he asked in a whisper.

i was so done.

why do i hate him?

some one with an IQ of 2 would understand why i hate him.

"why do i hate you?" i repeated slowly, i had enough of his drama.

"why do i hate you? that's your question?" i said, raising my voice

the games that he plays.

sometimes he acts all nice and the next minute he acts like a devil.

he stepped back, taken back by my sudden outburst. he opened his mouth to answer but I cut him off.

"you know what grayson, let me live why don't you? you choose how to treat me based on your mood. just because i'm ethan's best friend doesn't give you the right to treat me like that. please leave" i ranted through gritted teeth

he stayed silent and looked down at his shoes. after a few seconds he looked up "but ash i-" he began

"grayson. do not call me ash and please leave" i spat, pointing towards the door.

i saw hurt in his eyes, a look i've never seen before.

i suddenly wanted to say sorry,

i wanted him to hug me and be with me but i had enough of his little games.

he walked to the door, pausing for a second before turning the handle and disappearing from view

i walked to landing to listen to him talking to my mom.

"why was ashley yelling?" my mom asked, worried.

"she's mad at ethan..." he lied,

"oh, well have a good night hun and say hi to lisa for me!" she said smiling sweetly and closing the door behind him.

i waited until he was gone to walk down the stairs to grab a snack, all that yelling made me hungry.

"what happened with ethan? i thought you guys were friends again" she asked, looking a little worried.

"don't worry mom, we're fine" i replied, sending a reassuring smile before walking over to the fridge

i wanted some salad with a smoothie so i grabbed them out of the fridge.

"so why did gra-"

"mom, please, i really don't want to talk about it right now" i said, politely cutting her off and walking up the stairs

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i had finished all of my packing and was sitting on my bed scrolling through instagram,

"girls! and alex! get to bed now! our flight leaves tomorrow at 9 AM!" my mom yelled from the bottom of the stairs.

i heard alex and abby groan, they hated travelling.

annie seemed excited because...you'll just have to wait and see

i sighed, getting up to brush my teeth and get ready for bed. after going through my normal routine i went to abby's room.

we don't talk much except during dinner since she's so busy with school these days

"hey abb" i greeted, walking into her room.

she too, had posters of bts all around her room. her desktop decorated with little stickers of their faces and their BT21 characters

"hey ash" she replied from her bed where she lay on her phone

she sat up and put her phone on her nightstand, turning to face me

"oh man! i forgot to show you!" she exclaimed suddenly, scrambling off the bed and running towards her closet

i got excited too, watching her as she brought down a white box and i immediately knew what it was

"no way!!" i squealed as she set it down on her bed.

"i know" she laughed, opening it and pulling out it the new bts album, love yourself: her. their most recent one. (a/n: ah the good ol' ly era days 😭 i miss)

she opened the box and we both sat on her bed looking through the photos of the boys.

"fuck. yoongi is so hot" she said with a serious expression, holding up a photo of him

"and taehyung tho" i added, picking up his picture.

the next 30 minutes passed with us looking through the album and the photo book that came with it. we sat together and listened to 'we are bulletproof: the eternal', crying at the deep lyrics that hit us to our cores 

i checked the time, wiping my tears as i stood up and walked to the door

"night"

"g'night ash" she replied, getting up to put the box away.

"bring it, i wanna look through them and not have to deal with alexis or adam" i begged,

she laughed, nodding and putting the box inside of another box inside of her suitcase, gotta protect it.

priorities, am i right

"why though, i thought you and alexis are like best friends" she asked with a confused look.

"long story, i'll tell you on the plane" i answered, heading to my room.

i got to bed and immediately dozed off, clearly exhausted from the long day

That was today's chapter! HOPE YOU ENJOYED.

CHECK OUT BTS IF YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN THEM, TRUST ME THEY'RE AWESOME!! -z

edit: lmao don't check them out if you don't want to but hating on them for no reason makes you look dumb as fuck. i just tell it how it is. they don't need your views to be successful, they're doing it already.

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"you'll like bts' music if you listen without prejudice"

- min yoongi (bts' suga)
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