for the better. | grayson dolan ✔

forty-two

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first question, what was alexis doing in here?

second, ethan...what the fuck?

i turned around and saw amber grab her stuff and rush out of the cafeteria, ethan watching her go.

we all got up and followed her out, eventually finding her sitting by herself in the school courtyard.

"amber, listen, eth-" victoria started,

"i don't ever want to hear that name ever again." amber yelled, startling all of us.

we stood in silence, watching her cry. amber was usually strong and seeing her like this made me want to cry to.

maddy was always comforting so she sat with amber and calmed her down.

"come with me" victoria said,

not again.

i quietly followed Victoria to the cafeteria.

she approeached ethan and grabbed his arm,

"wha-" he started but victoria grabbed his wrist and dragged him out of the cafeteria.

right at the doors alexis came and pushed victoria out of the way.

"who the fuck are you?" she yelled,

victoria casually pushed her to the floor and continued dragging ethan out.

one thing i've learned so far,

don't mess with these girls.

once we were outside victoria stopped and let go of ethan's wrist, he looked at his shoes and fiddled with this fingers.

what happened next was so unexpected.

victoria slapped ethan

i gasped and ethan froze, his hand on his cheek.

"what the fuck is wrong with you?" she screamed

mrs. rimlay walked into the hall, spotting us and deciding to walk the other way

"i..." ethan began, unable to say anything.

"because of you both..." victoria said, pointing her finger in his face

"...we're going back" she finished

i looked at her in horror. no way they were going to leave me.

she cried, tears slipping down her cheeks. ethan looked sorry but was he? probably not.

she turned around and walked away, if i wanted to say something, i had to say it now.

i gathered all the courage i could muster before looking ethan in the face,

"forget you ever knew me" i said, choking on my tears.

he looked up and i could see tears brimming his eyes. he could cry all he wanted and it wouldn't make up for the hurt him and grayson have caused.

"pl-" he started, grabbing my wrist.

i pulled away as if i had just burned it.

"i dont know you and you dont me" i said, turning around.

i looked back one last time and wished i hadn't.

ethan was crying.

(warning: this part contains scenes of self harm, if you are sensitive to such topics please skip this section. also note that self harm should never be an option and if you ever need someone to talk to im always here or you can dm me on instagram! 💜)