for the better. | grayson dolan ✔

thirty-seven

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me?

jealous?

why would i be jealous?

"im really not" i replied firmly

"you sure?" he whispered, his hazel eyes boring into mine.

"yes" i muttered.

"what was that?" he asked, tilting his head.

"yes" i replied, louder

he stared into my eyes, it was like his eyes were burning holes through me

he stepped closer.

my breath hitched in my throat as he used his index finger to trace along my cheekbones

"okay" he said suddenly and left the room, leaving me standing there in complete and utter shock

what the fuck just happened?

i didn't want to make it look like anything happened so i straigtened my hair and waited a couple of minutes before making my way downstairs.

as i was walking to the landing, i heard ethan and grayson arguing.

i was about to step back and walk to the washroom to give them privacy but my curiosity got the best of me

"what did she say?" ethan was asking

"he's a 'friend'" grayson replied, from where i was standing i could see him making the quotation marks with his fingers.

"then there's nothing to worry about" ethan replied

"you dont just casually hold hands with a friend" grayson replied through gritted teeth, practically shouting.

"i kiss her on the forehead, we're friends!" ethan explained

"i know you like her"

silence.

"wha—" ethan began

"you're always doing this. i always wanna punch a wall when you stroll over to her and act like you're a couple. i told you i liked her months ago and you decide to become her 'best friend'. i told you amber was pretty, you decide to get her number. watch you go get victoria next" grayson ranted

my jaw was practically on the floor

what

in

the

world ?

"don't think i don't notice. casually wrapping your arms around her, kissing her on the forehead. im not stupid"

"listen gray, that was all befo—" ethan started.

grayson got up and pushed him,

this was getting out of hand.

"when before huh? before you made her start hating me, before you took a amber too. im not going to be surprised when you take victoria too" he spat.

"grayson, you have a girlfriend, what's the fuss about?" ethan shot back.

i had enough.

i ran downstairs and stopped in front of them, immediately they stopped talking.

"stop fighting" i yelled, running to put on my shoes.

"where are you going?"

"home until you two can figure out where your feelings stand instead of playing around with people" i yelled, slamming the door.

i couldn't help crying on the way home.

they're acting as if im some toy that they toss over to each other when they're bored

i got home and ran to my room and sat on the bed, staring at the ceiling

why did everything have to be so confusing?

-

great

today was school, that meant seeing the twins

i hesitantly got ready for school and dragged myself out of the house. walking fast in order to avoid them, the only thing that kept me going was that the girls were going to be at school.

"ashley! so glad to have you back!" mrs. rimlay said to me as i entered the classroom.

i sent her a smile and scanned the room.

just lovely. i had forgotten that grayson was in my class.

i sat down and put my head on my desk.

"today we are going to be switching seats, everyone stand at the back"

just rad.

today was the worst day ever.

people groaned and picked their things up, standing at the back and waiting for the teacher to direct them to their seat for the rest of the semester

i prayed i wouldn't have to sit with grayson.

"anikka and ryan"

"mila and shari"

"aniyah and tucker"

"ashley and grayson"

of

fucking

course

my heart dropped, i just wanted to go back to italy at this point

grayson looked at me before looking away, grabbing his things

"mrs, could i sit with grayson?" a female voice piped up.

i looked up and saw victoria. she sent me a soft smile which i returned.

"victoria, i already-" the teacher began

"pleaseeee" she asked again, joking slapping her hands together

mrs rimlay sighed "fine"

"grayson and victoria"

"there are a group of 3 at the back, you girls better not chat during class, im talking about you, ashley, amber and madelyne" she said, smiling at us. 

since this was a mandatory class, we had all just been lucky enough to be in the same class

we laughed and hugged each other, i looked over at grayson and victoria and saw her kiss his cheek.

i looked away, i should be happy for them right?

during class i managed to keep myself occupied and not look at grayson.

the bell rang for lunch and the girls led me to the cafeteria.

"sit sit!" maddy said, pushing me into the seat.

"okay okay, i am!" i laughed, lifting my hands up in surrender.

we spent the whole lunch period talked about random stuff like italy, cute guys in the school who had caught maddy's eye and of course, bts

while we were talking we got a text in the groupchat

victoria: come to the bathroom, pleasee

we looked at each other, i looked up and saw grayson walk in and glance before walking towards his friends.

amber: everything ok?

victoria: no , please just come

madelyne: coming

ashley: on our way

we all quickly got up and ran to the bathroom, opening the door we saw victoria sitting holding her knees with tears and mascara running down her cheeks.

we sat down beside beside her, maddy hugging her.

"what happened?" we all asked at the same time.

"grayson broke up with me"