I wish I could be who you want me to be
Strong and smart and kind and pretty
One who works hard in school and gets straight As
The kind of person who is perfect in every way
But I'm not any of these things
Though I can fake it like a puppet on strings
Sometimes don’t care if I try or fail
For when I try it seems to be to no avail
I don’t know what you expect me to do
I’m not the person you though you knew
The little girl of innocence and grace
Gave up when another door was shut in her face
I now wish I could go back and say
Please little girl, don’t go away
I need you to keep me away from lies
But instead I never even said goodbye
When mom looks at me, she sees an angel
One who is good, and whose life is stable
But that’s the little lie I’ve spun
Because I’m not close to an angel, hun.
One day you’ll have to find out the truth
That I’m not a perfect symbol of youth
All I am is a disgrace to your trust
And I know when you do you will be crushed
I’m sorry, so sorry, that I am who I am
My life for a while to you has been a scam
And I hide my head under a smile
And I will escape your radar for a while
Maybe it’s not too late
To change who I have been and make the demons abate
And perhaps someday I can be a good little girl
And my life can end the worthless whirl
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In My Head
PoetryA collection of my poetry. there is no rhyme or reason between them, they are simply there because i wrote them and needed a place for them to go. i know, my grammar sucks. also, there will be updates whenever i write more poetry.
