BTS Imagines

Our Angel

Today was a very tough day for me and for my fellow SHAWOLS. I was a SHAWOL before anything else. SHINee introduced me to alot of Kpop Genres and other groups such as my ultimate bias group as of today which is EXO. SHINee are my first loves, they were my first ever bias group, and one of them has now passed. I am truly mourning over Jonghyun's death. If you and I are close you would know how much I loved every single member of the group. They had a very special place in my heart. They were my firsts, and losing one made my world fall. Words cannot explain how much it hurts. Upon hearing the news, tears were running down my face. Everything stopped for a bit, but I am truly blessed to have friends who care for me, they reached out and told me everything will be alright. I am honestly telling you that I wont be okay now but maybe someday I would be able to accept. Jonghyun suffered from depression, something common but not taken serious. Depression is real and is harmful. This could have been prevented, he was constantly dropping hints sending signals but no one reached out. So, if you know somebody who is suffering, reach out to them, appreciate them, listen to them, don't ever judge them. They need you, and also, don't step on anybody. Don't send hate or speak badly of anybody else. Jonghyun had received constant hate and disses from other fandoms. This might have been the trigger. Please learn to appreciate others and their works. Everybody works hard for the things that they do.

Now, I am currently writing this with tears in my eyes and a heavy heart. I'll miss him so much, i loved him and I will always love him. No one can ever replace THE Kim Jonghyun, and I thank him and the rest of SHINee for introducing me to the fandom which I know consider my family. I thank him for making my 9 years as his fan truly magical and wonderful. We lost our prince but we did gain an angel. He is now our beautiful angel. May he rest well and in peace.

To everyone who is currently waiting for an update or to those who are waiting for their requests to be published, I'm sorry but I will be postponing everything until I recover. I am not it good mental state right now so I will be on hiatus. I hope you all understand.