BTS Imagines

Thru These Tears [ Jungkook ]

This was going to be the longest phone call she had to go through. The moment she pressed the last number and the phone started ringing, she already knew. Nothing else felt this
unreal. Everything seemed to have stopped, it all looked like it was frozen, iced.

"Y/N?"

"Jungkook, listen to me and just listen. Don't talk, don't comment, just let me speak"

She cuts off the boy making him fall silent. She sighs, her breathe cutting through the quietness he's giving her.

"Jungkook, I love you. And i miss you every single waking day and I can't believe i'm saying this over the phone but I regret leaving you."

She never knew what urged her to tell him this now but it was now or never for her.

"I hate how i fell apart knowing you needed me to be strong. If I had been strong enough to tell you that I didn't want to leave you; It shouldn't have ended this way. Every mistake paved its way to kill ne slowly with this regret because i should've apologized instead. I should've done what you wanted me to do. I shouldn't have let my pride rise over yours because I want3d to be superior. I was stupid. I prayed for you to love me again a million times, fought for you even from my friends who had been sickened by me and my head over heels stories about you. Can't you see? You mean the world to me, we might not be a normal couple nor do we follow the perfect couple standarr, but, i enjoyed my time with you. Every secojd that I was with you. We never really talked but we stayed together. Sat beside each other. You were there to make me smile."

She pauses, wiping her tear stained face before starting to talk again.

"But even though you had been there to send me into complete bliss, where were you when I needed you? Why did you always disappear? It hurt most when I had something to say and I was crying that might but you shut me off. All I needed was for you to listen, to hold me. You could've lied to me and told me it was okay, but you chose not to listen and leave me instead. Why? I guess i'll never know."

She had felt that the line must've been cut off because if the dead silence but she continued anyway

"But despite all that, your flaws and mine. I will still love you. Even if you find someone knew i will always be here for you. And if you come back i would gladly  take you back, because that's how much i care for you. I want you to be a part of my life so much i'd do anything for you"

She sighs

"I know in the end i'll be alright. Even if you decide to move on i know I will. But it will take one hundred sleepless nights to make the memories of you disappear, because you left me with so much to remember and so much to forget-"

She was cut off by a knock on the door. She walks slowly opening it quietly. The man infront of her smiled, holding the phine against his right ear.

"Jungkook?"

She says with a shaky voice as tears started to fall again, leaving her to see nothing else clear.

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[a/n] sorry it took me a while to update! Alot has been going on lately and i needed to breathe., what Y/N said are words that came from me directly, words i couldn't say to a boy as well but i guess it'll be alright in the end. I'll just let everything slide and hope for the best for him. ANYWAAAAAY another one will be up soon so stay tuned!! I missed you all so much ahh