Love Me?

36: Our Couple Moments

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Spring breaks over and Lily should be back any minute now. I'm so excited to see her even though she was only gone a week. It felt like forever.

"Hey guys." I watch her smiling face grow bigger as she walks aboard the ship. After Abigail and Sarah have finished drowning her in hugs, it's my turn. I pull her close and wrap my arms around her. This is one of those moments that I wish you could just pause and stay there forever. I force myself to let go and help carry her bags to her room.

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We've been together for a month now and it's been the best month of my life. I knock on her door at 5 in the morning and I hear her stumble out of bed to open the door.

"Happy one month anniversary sweety," I say handing her a banquet of roses.

She rubs her eyes and says, "Awww thanks. But did you really have to wake me up at 5 in the morning to give me flowers?"

I laugh, "get dressed and then I'll show you why I woke you up so early."

About 10 minutes later we make our way to the empty main deck. She sits down and I go get a delicious ice cream cake to share. We sit in the cold morning air watching the sun rise, while eating the ice cream cake.

"It's so beautiful! Thanks for waking me up, even though I do need my sleep," Lily says laughing.

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The next day we decide to go to a Camila Cabello concert together. I get into a pair of ripped jeans, a t-shirt, and some vans, before meeting her in the Guy Hangout to get dinner before the concert.

"What are you gonna get?" I ask Lily.

"Probably just a soda and a slice of pizza."

"That sounds good. Do you wanna just get a pizza to share?"

"Sure," she answers, "as long as we get Hawaiian pizza."

"We can get Hawaiian pizza with out the pineapple," I compromise.

"Are you seriously one of those people who doesn't like pineapple on their pizza?!?" She asks laughing.

"I might be."

"Then what kind of pizza should we get?"

"How about pepperoni and sausage?" I offer.

"Okay, that works."

I order the pizza and sodas and just as I'm about to pay, Lily pulls out some cash and pays. Most guys would be happy but I always feel guilty when she pays. I've learn there is no use arguing with her and we go sit down.

"Hey, so I didn't get to talk to you about this yesterday, but I have a question," she says.

"Um, okay. Fire away!"

"Where do you think this is going? Like do you think this is just another relationship that comes and goes or do you think we might actually have something or what?"

Oh crap! Not this question! I don't know. I don't know if I'm ready for this kind of commitment. I have some trust issues because of my dad and I'm not sure if I'm ready to really trust anyone again.

"Um, I honestly don't know."

"What's that suppose to mean?"

"Look I've never liked a girl more than I like you. But I'm honestly scared of commitment and trust. All my life the only thing I have seen that comes from trust is pain. And I can't take anymore pain," I answer honestly.

"I can understand that. We can just take it day by day," she says smiling.