Scars, Suicide and Australians

The Way She Feels

DISCLAIMER: THE SONG HERE IS CALLED TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS AND IS BY HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS (it's originally called The Way She Feels and by Between The Trees but personally I think it sounds better acoustic)

*the next day*

Ana's POV

"Can I get a light on the beautiful audience out there and a stool on stage please?" I yelled at the guys behind the stage.

The main lights flicked on, and my immediate attention was drawn to the girl in the back with a huge sign saying 'If you can actually see me from here, I love you Ashton Irwin!'. I laughed out loud at that.

"Excuse me! Can you clear a path for the girl with the sign right at the back for Ashton?" I asked the audience.

They parted like the Red Sea, and the girl ran down the stairs and across through the main auditorium. She ran up the stairs to the stage, and came straight over to me. She hugged me tight and whispered in my ear "I love your music!".

"Thank you, sweetie. I love you too!" I said.

She went back to her seat.

"Now, can you make a huge circle around the girl flicking me off with the Michael shirt in the middle please?" I asked, turning to the audience.

"Now, I have a challenge for you. Please can you get everyone in the whole room to sway with their arms up, with their phone lit up?" I asked her.

She turned to the girls around her and yelled "You heard her!" and they all started to click on the flashlight app.

"Can we get the lights switched off again please?" I asked the guys backstage.

"Guys, I feel really bad asking this because you've already done so much for me but please can you bring me my acoustic guitar?" I asked guilty.

Dan brought out my guitar, and I gave him a huge hug, and said thanks.

"Can any girls who self harm, or ever have self harmed, please come on stage. I know you may be embarrassed or may not want to come, but there are a lot of people in this position here right now, and no one will judge you."

At first, no one came up, but then one by one, a few girls came on stage until over three quarters of the audience were on the stage. It shocked and stunned me to see this many girls.

"I love you all, and please can you try to stay strong. I want nothing more than for you girls to say happy, and strong, and happy. I know sometimes it doesn't feel like this, but you are honestly worth more than this. If you need someone, I'll try my hardest to follow every one of my fans and you can DM me. This song is for you guys."

She's upset

Bad day

Heads for the dresser drawer to

Drive her pain away

Nothing good can come of this.

She opens it there's nothing

There is only left over tears

Mom and dad had no right she screams

As the anger runs down both of her cheeks.

Then she closed her eyes

Found relief in a knife

The blood flows as she cries

All alone the way she feels

Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief

Bite the lip, just forget the bleeding

Then she closed her eyes

Found relief in a knife

The blood flows as she cries

Woah, oh

Then she closed her eyes

Found relief in a knife

The blood flows as she cries

Curled up she's on the floor

Relief left her she had hoped for something more

From it (hoped for something more)

From it

He leans down to comfort her

She is weeping and He

Wraps His arms around

And around and around and...

[2x]

The deeper you cut

The deeper I hurt

The deeper you cut

It only gets worse

Gets worse

Now she's slowly opening...

Yeah she's slowly opening

New eyes...

She opened her eyes

And found relief in His life

And put down her knives

Woah, oh

She opened her life

And found relief through His eyes

And put down

She put down her knife

"You guys mean the world to me, and seeing you upset enough to do that to yourself, it hurts me. Talk to each other, get as many twitter names and phone numbers, and talk to these girls here, because after all, this is the Carwin Family, and we are all here for each other. I love you all."

All of the fans, and myself, had tears streaming down our faces.