Scars, Suicide and Australians

Thunder

a/n you're only lying to yourself if you didn't think it was a damn good book. I also apologise for being main stream with the song but its a damn good song so yeah btw mushy chapter.

Ana's POV

I do, Augustus. I do.

I read the last line of The Fault In Our Stars, curled up underneath a blanket with a mug of tea. I put the book on the little coffee table and turned to look out at the lashing rain and streaks of thunder flashing through the sky. It really made me think about everything. It always has, and I'm not sure why.

I am two weeks clean today, and I'm not sure how I feel about this. Being so used to cutting but not feeling the need to actually cut myself, it's weird.

I hear a guitar being strum but I ignore it as the boys tend to play guitar around the house.

What would I do without your smart mouth?

Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down

What's going on in that beautiful mind

I'm on your magical mystery ride

And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

I hear an angelic voice singing, but I can't put a face to it.

My head's under water

But I'm breathing fine,

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

It sounds really familiar but I'm not quite sure who it is.

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, ohoh

As the chorus is sung I see the familiar dark hair of the boy I don't understand my feelings towards.

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you're crying you're beautiful too

The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood

You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

He comes and stands in front of me.

My head's under water

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, ohoh

At this point I have tears streaming down my face.

Give me all of you

Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts

Risking it all, though it's hard

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you

I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, ohoh

I stand up, still crying, and lean over to hug him, but he kisses me hard on the mouth. Against his lips I murmur "All of me loves all of you, Luke. I just can't deny it."