I nervously tapped my fingers over the table, shifting my gaze from the clock to the teacher and back. Needless to say I payed no attention in class. I anxiously anticipated the bell. I looked over to Jenna, who seemed to be focused on some asignment we had to do. I'll just ask her to explain it to me later. I glimpsed at Julie through the corner of my eye. She was trying not to notice me. She seemed as if she felt...guilty? I couldn't think about that now.
The second the bell rang, ending our last class, I practically ran out. I made it just in time to catch the bus that would take me to Luke's house. I needed to explain what really happened. I hurt him. Julie's words kept echoing in my head "You don't deserve him" but I shrugged it off every time.
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Taking a deep breath, I rang the doorbell twice quickly.
"Please God, let him listen to me" I pleaded, hearing muffled slowly footsteps approaching.
Luke opened the door. His eyes were bloodshot and his face pale. He simply looked exhausted. I felt so guilty, it was all my fault.
"Luke, listen to me please" I said calmly, gesturing with my hands for him to calm down too.
"I don't want to hear it" he sighed and went to close the door, but I stopped him, putting my hand on the door.
"I was confused! I only thought I liked Dean because I missed you and he reminded me of you. I promise, the second he did something unlike you the supposed attraction disappeared" I explained in a single breath. I was panting after I finished, both from the lack of oxygen and the nervous feeling that he won't believe me.
"That's your excuse?" he asked indifferently, he wasn't convinced. He tried to hide his emotions, but I could tell he was upset.
"Trust me" I connected our eyes and cooed "I'm not lying to you"
"I did trust you. Until you cheated" he croaked, his voice cracking and his eyes turning glossy.
"Nothing happened" I whimpered desperately. How could I assure him I wasn't lying?
"This was a mistake" I heard Luke murmur under his breath, a hurting expression over his face.
"What was?" I breathe, feeling my chest tighten and pushing back a sob.
He parted his lips to say something, but kept quiet for a little while before mumbling "You"
With that he closed the door. I leaned onto the door, exhailing a long, hopeless breath, slowly starting to sob as more words echoed in my head "You don't deserve him" "You were a mistake"
"What have I done?" I whispered to myself. A warm tear slipped down my cheek, but I didn't bother to wipe it away. I let it slip, followed by more and more tears.
*Luke's point of view*
I slammed the door shut. I leaned onto it hopelessly, going over what just happened in my head.
She came to apologise and I didn't listen to her. I acted like an idiot. I felt my a lump in my throat. Jessica probably hates me now.
"What have I done?" I whispered to myself.
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