"What? You're leaving now?" I spat in disbelief, holding the phone up to my ear as I nervously ran a hand through my messy hair "What about Sam? We can't leave her here, we have to stay with her." I argued.
"Calm down Jess, it'll be okay." Luke assured me "There's nothing we can do, we have to agree with what the label wants, I'm sorry. You guys can stay at our hotelroom in London and we'll be back in a month, when the tour ends and just in time to see Sam recovered."
I sighed defeatedly "Alright, I guess that could work...Poor Calum, I can only imagine how he's feeling right now. Can you please tell him not to worry? I promise we'll take care of her and she'll get better."
"I will. Oh, and Jess?"
"Yeah?"
"I love you."
A smile crept it's way to my lips as something inside of me grew warm "I love you too." with that I hung up, falling back onto the uncomfortable hospital chairs. I knew this was coming. Sometimes I just know, I just feel something bad will happen...I never even imagined this though. Samantha was such a good person, such a sweet and sensitive girl, she doesn't deserve this. Same goes for Calum. They were so happy together, he'd crawl to the end of the world before letting her get hurt...I can't even imagine how awful he must be feeling.
"Jess!" I winced, shooting my head up to look at Jenna. The doctor warned us not to visit her all together, so we agreed on going in one by one. Jenna didn't need to say anything, she only threw me a meaningful glance, to which I nodded, pushing myself up.
Nothing I've told myself, nothing I've heard could prepare me for what I was about to whitness. Because nothing brings you down more than looking at someone you used to know at their best, and seeing them at their worst. My heart sank when my eyes landed on the helpless girl lying on the hospital bed. I knew I had to keep it together for her sake, breaking down right now would not be wise. Dressing on my best everything-will-be-okay smile, I carefully walked over to the bed, speaking in the softest tone I could conjure up "Hey Sam, how are you feeling?"
She snapped her head up, her chocolate brown orbs widening in surprise. For a moment, she reminded me of a dear, a fragile, innocent dear. You needed to approach her with caution, as if she was made of glass, so not to hurt her. Slowly, she nodded her head "I'm okay."
"Has Jenna told you about Calum?" I half-whispered, unsure of what reactions to expect.
Suddenly her eyes became glossy and I knew she knew. I gave up on further questions, wrapping my arms tightly around her as I pulled her into a comforting embrace. Her arms found their way around my waist. She burried her face into my shoulder and my heart shattered as she started sobbing loudly.
I kept quiet. I let her cry as much as she wanted, she needed to let it out. Samantha was in a rough situation and she didn't need to listen to me giving her a speech she's probably heard more than once already. She needed support and she simply needed to let it out. My mind was set on the matter at hand. The information of her having leukemia was still fresh to me, I was in the state of disbelief. I still didn't quite understand what was going on and what the situation meant for her. However, I believed with every fiber of my being that she would get throught it alive, or better yet, I wanted to believe.
"Can you," she stuttered, choking on her tears. I helped her calm down before letting her continue "Can you call Calum? I- I want to talk to him."
"Sure." I cooed, eyeing her actions cautiously as I picked up my phone. I sent Calum a text, to which he replied within seconds. We set up a skype chat before I handed my phone to Sam. I stood up, creating a few feet of distance between us and giving them somewhat privacy.
The second Calum's voice echoed through the room, Sam began to sob again. I wrapped my arms around myself, gripping my forearms with my hands and trying to keep myself composed.
"No, please don't cry. It'll be okay, I promise you'll be okay. Don't be afraid." Calum tried desperatelly to calm Samantha down, but it was clear in his voice that he was on the edge of tears as well.
"I don't need it to be okay. I'm not afraid." she whispered "I only need you here. You keep me from being afraid."
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hey guys! omg we're doing so well it's amazing!
bad news, i'm travelling to the countryside tomorrow and i won't be back until tuesday so i might now be able to update :(
i see a lot of reads and votes here (which is overwhelming) but i would really love and appreciate it if more of you commented. do you like the story so far? is there anything i should work on when it comes to my writting?
could we rack up 25 reads, 5 votes and 5 comments by the time o get back home? IF THAT HAPPENS I PROMISE YOU A DOUBLE UPDATE
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