The Virgin Lies (Published under LIB)

Chapter 39

Sometimes, people knew when to step back. People know when to quit and when to wait.

Ganyan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.  I knew that Dylan was disappointed with me. I was not that insensitive enough to not notice that Dylan was disappointed.

But I was insensitive enough to not get why.

Whatever the reason was, I decided not talk to him about this right now. Kailangan ko munang dumistansya para mawala ang kung ano mang ikinapapangit ng kanyang damdamin.

Meron kasing gano'n. Kapag medyo may di pagkakaintindihan sa pagitan ng dalawang tao, kailangan muna nila ng space tapos sa susunod na magkita at magkausap sila at magiging okay na ang lahat.

Thinking about his bad mood, I got a hint that he's like that because I wasn't able to reply on his texts or answer his calls.

Inaamin ko, mali ko 'yon pero hindi naman 'yon big deal. Marami lang akong ginagawa. Theo needed me and I was here to help him. Hindi ako nakasagot sa mga text at tawag niya dahil do'n.

Because I was occupied.

Because I was helping a friend. My only friend.

So why was he like that?

Siguro nagseselos? Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako at umiling. Hindi naman siguro. I wouldn't assume that much.

Assuming made my life miserable before. Four years ago, I assumed that he loved me. That we had that thing between us pero mali pala ako.

Broken and thrown like a hot potato. That was assuming had caused me.

Now, I would never assume anymore. Oo sinabi niya nga na mahal niya 'ko. He already dropped those words but the magic on those words won't ever affect me that much.

Hindi naman sa naging bato na ang puso ko. Takot lang akong magtiwala dahil baka masaktan na naman ako. Mahirap na.

"Kala ko umuwi ka para maligo?"

"Oo. Kumuha na din ako ng mga damit mo." Nilapag ko ang dala dalang paper bags sa lamesa.

Umuwi ako kinabukasan pero wala akong nadatnan sa bahay. Kuya didn't text me where he'd go but Dylan texted me earlier that he'd gone off to work.

I replied telling him that I was home only to bathe.

"Then why are you wearing my shirt?" Inaayos ko ung agahang niluto ko kanina nang magsalita siya.

I looked down to the clothes and giggled before facing Theo's irritated expression.

"Fave T-shirt ko 'to eh." He huffed in annoyance before getting off the bed and grabbed the paper bags having his clothes.

Ito ang T-shirt na inihagis ng bokalista ng isang sikat na banda noong anniversary party ng kumpanya. Namamato sila ng free T-shirt habang kumakanta tapos swerteng nasalo ni Theo. The color was dark blue, has their logo and autograph. But of course, ung signature nila ay printed.

I knew he's not interested on the band but he still kept this shirt. Ang totoo, isang beses niya lang 'to nasuot tapos ako na ang gumamit. Ayaw naman niyang ibigay.

Mas lalo akong natawa ng mawala ang kanyang pigura matapos sumara ang pintuan ng banyo.

Hapon na nang matapos namin lahat ng kailangan para makalabas na siya ng ospital. Isang araw lang siya dito. He said he didn't want to stay any longer. He seemed to dislike the place.