Nothing but Trouble...

Im sorry.

I cuddled up to JC and started watching the movie again. Everything's gonna be all right.

We finally finished the movie and JC was about to leave. "Hey um JC. Can you stay here tonight?" he smiled and hugged me. "Sure babydoll. Anything for you." I smiled and went to change. I came back out in sweats, one of Justin's old shirts, and my hair in a bun. I missed Justin. No stop thinking about him. You have JC. That's what you wanted. Be happy. I put on a smile and walked over to my bed. JC was already half asleep in his usual sleepwear. No shirt, and just underwear. He's so cute and sexy at the same time. I lifted the blankets and cuddled next to him. He was laying on his back and I laid on my side facing him with a hand on his chest. I rose up and kissed his cheek and whispered an "I love you" before slowly and soundly drifting off into sleep.

Around 3am. I got a text from someone. I looked at my phone. Struggling. And saw that it was from Justin. It read

"Alexa. Babygirl. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I left you to follow my dreams and do what I love. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you for the longest time. Either I couldn't or I had no time. I wasn't supposed to text anyone that wasn't famous for risk of my phone number getting out and as much as I tried explaining to them that you wouldn't give it away and that I needed you they wouldn't let me. All the issues I had. The drinking, drugs, everything I did that I shouldn't have. It was just from missing you. Yeah the stress from pap and stuff but mainly from missing you. I just wanted you to be there. To hold me and tell me everything would be alright. It's my song yeah, but I had just written everything I wanted to hear you say. I'm just sorry. I know you chose JC and I don't know if you blocked my number but I'm just sorry. I still love you babygirl. Foreverandalways.😞💖"

'Wow.' Was all I could think.