SHAMELESS ✔(Damian Wayne Fanfic)

SHAMELESS

Valarie POV

I totally got drunk last night. Of course I had a raging headache but it was worth it. Last night was thrilling and hanging out with the sexy guy Jason made it better.

I yawned and placed my hand on my forehead considering it was pounding. Then it dawned on me, I wasn't in my bed. This was not my bed nor was it my room. The walls weren't the eggshell white I had and the pillows I was lying on weren't teal and gold.

"Good, you're awake." Said a female voice. I shot up out of bed and saw a woman sitting in an arm chair. She had brown eyes and wavy dark brown hair. Her skin was a nice shade of honey and she was about the same height as me once she stood up.

"Were you watching me sleep?" I ask as she pushes open the curtains, blinding me.
"Don't worry sugar," she says with sarcasm. "I already packed you a little doggy bag and got you an uber."

"What the heck?" I question, placing my hands over my eyes. "Why are you...where am I?"
"In a bed you don't own." She retorts then giving me a serious facial expression.

An expression I know to well because it reminded me of the face Veronica makes when she's going to punch someone in the face.

"Did you kiss Jason." She asks.

And that's when it hit me. This was Jacklyn Ate. His girlfriend of three and a half years. And last night was a blur but before I got more drunk, I do remember a moment.

We headed back inside and Felix still wanted me to dance. I kept refusing and then some chic with overly glossed lips stepped up and danced. Jason wasn't into it and went outside for a smoke. While I stayed in watching her. Felix wasn't as pleased because she wasn't my sister she definitely didn't dance like her. I mean, thats what he said.

They got into this big argument and I jumped in once she called my sister a whore. I was ready to punch her in the face and once my fist raised Jason grabbed my elbow asking, "Is it worth it?"

Of course I wanted too but he had a point. My eyes filled with tears and I ran out the back. The drugs weren't doing their job and that wasn't even half of it.

After a while of me sobbing the door opened and Jason nodded for me to come back inside. "Felix misses you." He joked. Then I said,
"Then why didn't he come out here and get me. Why did you?"
"He's a friend. And on a shift, now get inside before he has a heart attack."
Wiping my tears I look to him, "Tonight...I wanted to forget everything. Not worry about anything but myself."

"Your grieving. Your allowed to feel that."
I scoff and lick my bottom lip.
"Then tell me why I don't feel anything. Tell me why I can't forget." I plead.
"Thats not the way it works Valarie. You don't feel because you don't know what you want to feel."
I pushed him against the brick wall and said, "Then make me feel something...I need to feel something Jason." I whisper leaning in to kiss him.

I felt skin on my lips for a brief moment and then a gust of air as I was punshed away from his body.
"What are doing?" he asks sternly, and angry expression on his face.
"You're right...I'm so sorry."

And then I ran. It was humiliating, the fact that I was trying to get with one of Mr. Wayne's sons who had a girlfriend. Plus, this was strange for me. I'm usually the one rejecting others...no one rejecting me.

That's when I decided I was done. I dug in my purse for the dose of heroine I was saving for later. But now...I decided it was time.

All I remember was sticking more doeses into the needle and saying,

"I'll see you soon família."

Before I blacked out.

"Hello!" Shouted the same woman who was standing over me. Her eyebrows still narrowed, more angry this time. "Answer the question."

"I kissed him." I sigh, sitting up and her eyes go dark which scares me. It was very bizarre. "I...I was drunk and he pushed me away. I'm so sorry-"
"You better be." She replied through her teeth. "You don't kiss someone's boyfriend and think you can get away with it."
The door opened and a man came in rolling a tray with a coffee pot and pills.

"Good morning Miss. Ellington, Jacklyn." He said in a strong British accent. "Alfred Pennyworth at your service." he says.

I guess he sensed the tension because he looked at us with a concerning look on his face once his eyes landed on Jacklyn. "Is everything all right?" He asks, looking to her.

" Peachy," she replied coldly. "I don't care who you are Valarie Ellington, but this..." She says pointing between us, "isn't over."

And then she left.

"Is she always like this?" I ask as he hands me two white pills.

"Yes and no. She has her moments and its sad to say their haven't been that many moments lately."

Placing the pills on the tray I crush them with the mug and pour coffee into it. Then dumping the crushed up pills into the mug of hot coffee. I drink a glass of water and grab the mug.
Alfred looks at me with a surprised expression.

"You must've done this before?" He asks with a light chuckle.
"Sadly yes." I reply. "This isn't exactly my first time."

He laughed as I sipped the coffee.
"I've brought clothes for you and a clean towel. And breakfast is downstairs whenever you're ready."

"OK thank you." I say as he leaves me in the room. Standing to my feet I walk over to the other door across from the bed after taking another sip of coffee. I took the towel and clothes with me and turned on the shower head.

Once I was in I stood there letting the water hit my face as remorse fell over me.

I'm sorry I didn't come to your graves....