Saving Anabelle Cassity | Logan Paul FanFiction

"It's True"

Anabelle's POV
I've never felt so alone in my life. It's been a week since the incident with Logan occurred and I still cant get it off my mind.

I crave his touch, his scent, and his heart. I want his company now more than ever. When I told Logan that I loved him, I meant it. I meant it with all my heart. When he was out there exploring the world, I was sleeping in the same bed with my world, and that was him. Logan. No one else runs in my mind but him and only him. Am I ashamed? No. But I am disappointed. Disappointed on how blind I came to be with him. How I just fell in his trap and let him take me with his all, breaking me apart at the end. 

You're worthless. You were never nothing to him.

Maybe my mind is now speaking the truth. Maybe I never meant nothing to him. Maybe I am truly worthless. I hate myself.

A knock was heard and my attention was faced towards the sound. The door opened and I see Ericka, one of Jake's girl friends. I wiped away my eyes and smiled at her.

"Come in." I said and she did so, closing the door behind her. She comes and sits next to me on the bed, that was Jake's, and sets one of her hands on my right shoulder.

"You okay?" she asked and I nod.

"Fine. Why?"

"After Logan's video? You're feeling okay?" Ericka said confused and I tilted my head, also confused.

"Logan's video?" I said almost choking out his name. She nods.

"I'll be downstairs. I want you to take in what he says. You might want to actually watch it, by the way." Ericka says with a comforting smile and then walking towards the door, opening it, and leaving.

I looked around for my phone. Once I found it, I saw millions of notifications that have pilled up after a week of not paying no attentions towards them, what so ever. I looked through them and saw notifications that were messages from Logan. I was afraid to look through them but I clicked on them anyway.

Logan: Anabelle, come back home.
I know that I fucked up. Believe me, baby. I know.
Ana, please. I need you in my life. I need you in my arms.
Trust me when I say that Lydia means nothing to me.
I want to explain to you everything, EVERYTHING, but I want to do it on person.
I need you to know that I making nothing up.
I love you and I mean it.
Please.
Anabelle, babe, look. Please read this. You mean everything to me. I have never met someone like you and now that I have lost you, I feel like I am not living. I need you with me. I want you with me. You are beautiful and amazing and anyone would be bless to be with you. I thought I could of been that person, but I messed that all up. I want you in my future. I want you to keep holding the key to my heart. Baby, I can keep going on and on about how I feel, but even then, nothing will be able to describe how I fell about you. How my HEART feels about you. There is nothing like us.

I can feel my eyes start to water as I read that paragraph that Logan sent me. My heart wanted to forgive him so bad, but my mind didnt want to. The imagine haunts me in my dreams and the voices have grown louder since. The demons in my head know that I am alone. They will attack even more this time. 

As I keep scrolling through all my notifications, I finally bump into the notification from YouTube that notified me that Logan uploaded 30 minutes ago. After a few minutes, I click on the video and I see the title. "It's True."

He had the camera set up in front of his bed. Logan sat down and looked straight at the lens with a face that was held stiff, but eyes soft. He looked down, sighed, then looked back up.

"It's true." He says and I feel my heart drop. "I have messed up so bad, my actions have caused me a strong, intelligent, woman. " Logan's face finally starts showing emotion when he mentions what he has lost. His lips press against each other hard. Logan brings up his hand and wipes his eyes. He was not daring to show his tears. You then heard thunder. Logan looks up and looks over to his window. I saw the redness surrounding both of his eyes. His eyes then again meet the camera. "Many of you have been wondering about Anabelle and why she is not in the vlogs anymore, as well as Lydia. I didnt want to answer those questions right there and then because for one, I knew what I did and I knew that no matter how the story went, I did wrong. " Breathes. "Second, I just wanted to let it be clean and reflect for a little while before I can talk about it." Logan hold in his breath and then looks down covering his face. " There have been many assumptions from others, that were said, and I hate to say that..it's true. " Logan looks at the camera, stiff, with a frown on his lips. "Me and Anabelle were not yet in a relationship, but we were on our way to do so. One night, after I got down filming for my movie, Lydia asked me to go out and get drinks. I accepted without thinking much about the offer. I did the stupid mistake of drinking too much and one thing leaded to another at the place that me and Lydia went to."

As I heard him tell what happened that night, my heart was beating quickly as it was squeezed against my chest. My mind was telling me to click off the video, but my heart was yelling at me louder.

STAY. YOU NEED TO KNOW.

"I got drunk. Lydia took me home and that's when everything happened. Even though Anabelle was not official girlfriend, she was close to being so. I treated her like my wife. So, it's true. I cheated on Ana with Lydia-" 

Close the video now. He cheated. That is all you need to know.

Now my mind was yelling louder. I closed the video and locked my phone. I went under the covers.