Saving Anabelle Cassity | Logan Paul FanFiction

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Logan's POV
After I posted the video, I closed my laptop and havent opened it since. I'm not afraid of what people will say, I already know what they'll say. But I'm afraid of Ana's response. Most likely someone from the Team 10 House will see the video and inform Ana or she'll just watch it.

I know she's read my messages. She hasnt responded, though. Part of me believes that she'll respond, but the other half already lost hope. 

I havent had the guts to fire Lydia yet. I am not sure if I even will. She is one of my best assistants and I cant just let her go because we slept with each other. But even then, that costed me the love of my life. If getting rid of Lydia makes Anabelle come back, I'll do it in a heart beat. At the end of the day, my heart belongs to Ana and nobody will ever change that. Not even some meaningless sex.

My phone sounded and I picked it up seeing a message notification. I quickly noticed that the message was from Anabelle.

Baby Ana: I saw your video and I still have not changed my mind. Logan, you broke me apart when I most thought I had found someone that can heal me and save me from such darkness that I am in. Yet, you did the opposite. I love you. I loved you. You took that for granted. I am not sure if I can ever forgive you for that. Ever. I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you think that I was not good enough. I'm sorry that I am not perfect or the girl that you want. I hope that you and Lydia have a very happy relationship and that she finally has the chance to be with you, like she had wished. 

Me: Ana, did you even see the full video? I only want you. I only crave your affection. No one else's. Lydia is NOTHING to me. She is just another girl that wants me. Baby, I love you. I understand that you will possibly never be able to forgive me, at all. But at least hear me out and hear what I have to say. I fucking love you, Ana.

Anabelle read the messages but she never responded. I dont blame her. I never will. But it still causes pain to shoot at my heart. 

I go to Instagram and see notifications from my pictures. I then start scrolling through all the pictures from people that I follow and then come across one of Anabelle's photo. Luckily, she hasnt blocked me from there.

@ana_bella_cass : I am just going to be honest. I am done with life.

Comments:
@goodygoodylol : Yo boo. What's wrong?
@Arabella124 : Honey, r u okay?
@erikacostell : I think you need to calm down a little bit. Things will turn out okay.
@jakepaul : ❤❤❤
@jakepaul : u look smokin 

Jake, bro, how can you even say that in such a serious post?

I keep scrolling down and see yet another photo of her..and then many more.

@ana_belle_cass : Okay. I need to start doing something in my life besides laying in bed, crying, trying to convince myself to go back to his house, and starving myself. I need to change something. Be something different. Besides, Be A Maverick, right lil one?

@ana_belle_cass : Fuck it. I am going to cut my hair and dye it blonde. I'm tired of my hair anyway. Let's go. 

My heart starts to beat faster as I see more pictures of her leading into her new transformation. I didnt want her to change. She was beautiful just the way she was. Why? Why. Why. Why!

@ana_belle_cass : U like? 

My heart sunk. Her appearance was never the reason I grew to love her. But the fact that she is changing all of her because she has grown tired of herself and anxious and so heartbroken over the whole situation, it kills me. She looks much skinnier. Skinnier than the last time I saw her.

If she hates me so much and will never forgive me, than why has she not blocked me from anywhere on social media? 

She wants to let you know that it's your fault. You couldnt save her. You became the villain in the story and you stole her heart. 

That's the thing. I do know it's my fault. I do know what I have done wrong. I deserve for it to be rubbed in my face. But it feels like I am being murdered for being the reason she is changing. 

My life was always up and going. Nothing ever came in my way. I was living the dream and being creative online. I never much depended on anyone but myself to keep moving forward. Though, when my friends started to fall in love and saying the same ole' quotes "I can't live without you" and "You're my reason for living," I never once believed it until it happened to me. Until I met Anabelle. I never believed it was possible, but it IS. 

I lost what keeps me going. I lost my world, my reason. I lost my life. Without Anabelle, I feel dead. I feel like I live in no light. If this is what it feels to be in love, and then lose it, then I dont even want to love again.

I only want her. Anabelle Cassity. I want to live a future with her and save her. I want her dark mind to be put to rest. I want her to see the colors and the light. Because to me, that is what she is. She should not have to change because of a broken heart. 

What am I doing? Am I really just going to stay here and do nothing?

I sit up from the couch and grab my phone and the keys. Behind me, I hear Brandon and Lydia call after me but I leave the house with no word.

I have to fight.