So Fast [Revising]

Entry 40/Remembering you

Entry 40

(a/n: Thanks for supporting So Fast until the end! Salamat talaga!!! Pag'ka tapos ne'to I'll start the

dedication ;) Siya nga pala, magkakaroon ng special chapter si Danika and France. Stay tuned. :)

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ENTRY 40

KEISHA POV.

Unti-unti nang nagiging malinaw saakin ang lahat. Bigla-bigla nalang may nagpi-play sa utak kong mga scene. Everytime na nagkakaganun, laging andun si Jaz. He's always there. Always with me. Tapos nung isang araw, I dreamed about Xander. Bumalik daw siya. The set-up is in the convenient store. It was a rainy day that day.

I saw myself got wet because of the rain, and I don't know kung bakit ako naglalakad without an umbrella. Tapos, I go inside of the comvenient store and there I saw Xander. Tapos nag-cut na yung scene sa utak ko.

I really want to believe, even if it was only a dream. Pero bakit ganun? Tuwing inaalala ko siya, wala na akong nararamdaman na weird na pagtibok nang puso ko. There's no goosebumps. Hindi na katulad dati na kapag marinig ko palang ang pangalan niya kahit hindi siya eh kinakabahan na ako. Pero ngayon, wala na. As in wala na.

Hindi ko'na nga ba siya mahal?!

Is there someone that I truly love? Kaya ba ganto nalang ang reaction ko pagdating sa'kanya? But, If I don't love him anymore....then, who's my love? Sino?

For this past few days, I'm always with Jaz. Hindi ko alam pero I feel like, I want to stay by his side every time. Every minute, every second. I feel so comfortable when I'm with him...

Meron pa akong natandaan na I'm eating at some fancy restaurant with him. If I'm not mistaken my vision, It was in boracay. Tapos nagsindi kami nang bonfire with my friends near in the beach. Sa'may sand... May nag play pa na scene sa utak ko na we're kissing at the park, na kami lang ang tao....I don't know, the place it wasn't familiar to me. I see myself at that moment that I was very happy. Masasabi ko na priceless ang kasiyahan ko nang araw na'yun.

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2 days have past. Ngayon malinaw na saakin ang lahat. Now, I really remembered everything. Lahat lahat. As in lahat. I'm glad that my memories have back. Naaalala ko na, yung nagka'bungguan kami nang pusang pusit na'yun sa hallway, nung J.S, Nung nag-boracay kami with Lucas at mga iba pa. I'm so happy at the same tim I felt so guilty.

Nagawa kong itaboy ang mahal ko..... Naging masama ako sa'kanya these days. But then, he didn't gave up on me. He fight for me. He fight for our love. He fight for the sake of our relationship. He really really loves me, even if I do avoid him so many times, nung may amnesia pa ako. Now its my turn....

Babawi ako sa'kanya...

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JAZ POV.

Andito kami ni Keisha sa'may park (near in our village) Baka sakaling she'll remember something here. Nung time na nagpunta kami dito. Naglibot libot lang kami sa parked. Niyaya ko siya to ride on bike, but she refused. Of course I knew it. Sabi niya ayaw niya daw dahil hindi siya marunong. I chuckle. I can still remember that day, nung pinagtripan ko siya. Yung mga kalokohan na ginawa ko sa'kanya. Hahahaha. Ang meanie ko nun that time.

Weeks have past pero mukhang walang progress yung pagbalik nang nga losted memories niya. Well, it's fine. Diba nga nag-promise ako na kung hindi niya na talagang magawang maalala pa at maibalik pa, puwes, I'll make another memories with her. We'll make a memorable and cherish moments together.

I can't help my self but to asked her straightforwardly. "Keisha, do you remember something in this place? Dito sa park. Yung-----"

Before I could finished my sentence, she already cut me out.

"When you trick on me? Na you asked me to go here and said to me to ride on bike, even if I say na I don't know how, but you still insist and you even said that you'll teach me pero that's not your true intention to'me, na the truth is you have a secret agenda to'me. You just want me to look like a big noob in your eyes and make fun of me right? You even just stared and laugh at me dahil I fell from the bike, tapos you walked in my direction kasi nakonsensya ka. You just want you're conscience to rushed away from you." She said while grinning meaningfully.

First reaction ko at this moment? I was fvcking shocked and skeptical!! Did she-----Did she already remembered everything? Naalala niya na nga ba talaga lahat lahat? Did her memories was finally back, for good?!

Even if I try to speak out some words, pakshet! Walan nalabas na boses from my mouth! I was literally damn speechless! Darn!

She faced me and directly looking straight into my eyes.... I gaze at her dark brown eyes. Studying her face. I just can't believe it, okay?!!! Am I dreaming?

She smile....Oh.... Goodness gracious! I missed those smile! Her lips! I miss everything about her! Her smile widened.

"Are you going to stare at you're girlfriend all the time?" She asked and raised an eyebrow. "No hug?" She added. She step closer to me ang flashes a bright smile in her face.

"Fine. Madali naman akong kausap pusang pusit! Kung ayaw mo, ako nalang." Nag tip-toe siya para mapantayan ako. And then she....

Kiss me.

Kumalas din siya sa pagkakahalik saakin. She looked at me and gently touched my face.

"I love you so much Jaz. Thankyou for sticking with me even if I always avoid you for many times. Thanks for loving m----" I shut her mouth by kissing her deeply.

I stared at her. "Dami mong satsat eh. I knew that you really love me so much. Walang halong pagdu'duda. Kahit na ano pang amnesia yan, I knew that you love me. You always do. And I love you too bebs. and I always do." I mouthered.

Talagang mapaglaro ang tadhana no? Gumagawa talaga siya nang paraan to make you're life more exciting. Bibigyan ka niya nang matinding trials, and I can proudly said that, nalagpasan ko'na yun ngayon. Nalagpasan na namin yun ngayon nang magkasama. After the pain, the problem that we experienced, lahat ng nangyaring hindi maganda, may kapalit na saya.

At nalagpasan namin yun. Nalagpasan namin yun nang magkasama ni Keisha. I should thank France. He's right. Maari ngang nakalimutan ako ni Keisha for awhile, pero hinding hindi magagawang kalimutan nang puso niya kung sino ang tunay na tinitibok nito. At ako yun.

I'm so blessed that I met her. I'm so blessed that God gave me a precious gift that I'll cherish for the rest of my life. Na binigay na saakin si Keisha.

Mapaglaro nga talaga ang tadhana. It's really true that life is full of surprises. You didn't noticed that, that surprised is finally came to'you unexpectedly without knowing it. Hindi mo alam na nabigay na pala sayo nang tadhana ang surprise nang buhay....

Ano ang binigay saakin?

Binigay lang naman saakin nang tadhana ang buhay ko. Ang naging buhay ko. Ang nagpakulay nan dating buhay kong boring....

I thank for all the problem that came to'me. Kung wala yung problema na'yun, walang kami. Hindi kami magigin masaya ngayon. Maaari nung una eh parang gusto ko'nang sumuko at magalit sa mundo dahil kinuha saakin si Keisha.

Not literally nilayo, pero yung hindi kana maalala? Yun ang masakit. Pero tignan mo ngayon, she's finally back. My love was finally back to'me.

I don't care of some people who where looking at us. Basta masaya ako ngayon. All I want to'do is to just kissed her, and hug her tight. Secure her in my arms.

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(a/n: woohooo! 2 more entries to'go then Epilogue! Nga pala I currently revising So Fast. So sa mga previous chapters ay MARAMING nag-iba. Madaming dinagdag, binago. Less spacing. Less emoticons.

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