Anxiety [Muke af]

Eleven

WARNING. TRIGGERING WORDS. PLEASE READ CAREFULLY.

Michael's outfit on the side! He looks so adorable and soft!!!

"Lukey?" Liz knocked on his door softly "Come in."

"Luke, tomorrow, after school, I booked you an appointment with Jane." Jane was Luke's therapist. He didn't see her as often as he should "No, mum... I-I can't..." He whimpered. Liz sighed, and sat down on Luke's desk. He was drawing, he was working on his drawing of Michael. Luke fiddled with his fingers "Sweetie, I've seen the bandages on your arm...and it hurts me, Lukey. I love you. You're my son, my baby." She looked at him with blurry eyes. Luke saw how much this affected his mother and, don't get him wrong, he wanted to get better, the problem was that he didn't like to talk about his problems "O-okay... I'll go. Can you come with me?" Liz smiled at him softly, then shook her head "I have to work, I wish I could." She glanced down at his drawing and saw it was that Michael guy "You could ask Michael?" Luke froze "I- I don't know, mum... We're not that close..." Luke shaded a little part of drawing, trying to hide the fact that he was blushing "Luke, just ask him..."

"When will you be home?"

"At 11pm... I'm sorry, Lukey. Maura just had a baby, so I'm taking her shifts." Luke nodded "Okay... I'll ask him.." Liz smirked "Good... What is it you young ones say nowadays? Ship? I ship you guys?" And Luke wanted to bury himself right then and there "Mum!" Luke groaned "Aw Luke, am I embarrassing?" she kissed his forehead and walked towards the door "Dinner is ready in 10."

Luke grabbed his phone as soon as he heard the door close. He took a deep breath before typing out a message for Michael.

[To: Michael x]

Hey, Michael. I wanted to ask if you wanted to take me to this appointment tomorrow after school? And take me home again? It's okay of you don't want to x

His heart was racing as he pressed send. He hated sending messages asking for something (Or just texting in general, not that he was texting a lot of people, but still) he was afraid that he might annoy them. But much to Luke's surprise, he almost instantly got a reply back.

[From: Michael x]

Of course! Are your mum working late? x

Luke felt butterflies in his stomach. Michael is so nice.

[To: Michael x]

Yeah, she is.

[From: Michael x]

Okay. I can stay with you until she comes home, if you'd like?

There they were again. Those butterflies. It was weird Michael had this effect on him. It made him forget all his worries and problems, even if it was just 2 minutes. It made him feel not so empty. Since Luke and Michael exchanged numbers, Michael would text him everyday and ask if he he had a nice day or if he was okay. It was really sweet and Luke appreciated it a lot. He hadn't had a lot of panic attacks lately because of it.

[To: Michael x]

Yeah, you can stay.

Michael replied with a thumbs up. Luke put his phone down and just stared blankly at the wall for a little bit. Now he felt empty again. So many thoughts ran through his head. Bad thoughts. It was that voice that would tell him:

Michael is just pitying you.
He doesn't care about you.
It was probably just a dare.

There was also other thoughts. Still negative.