Anxiety [Muke af]

Nineteen

Youngblood is amazing omg! I do hope the other boys get to sing some more, though

(Also. This cover makes me want to cry! So proud of Louis)

The reason Luke was at the pond that night, was because he was thinking of doing something. Something stupid. And he didn't wanna do that, he didn't wanna let Michael down, even though Michael didn't know about it. 

He didn't expect to see Ashton there. But he was actually quite happy he was there. He really enjoyed talking to him. 

After Ashton left, Luke stayed at the pond a little longer, just thinking. 

Half an hour later he went home. He threw himself on his bed, he really wanted to hurt himself, but he just couldn't let his mum or Michael down. He had to be strong. He groaned and threw a pillow across his room. That was another problem: Luke had a few issues with anger. Sometimes he couldn't control it, especially if he had those thoughts. 

He grabbed his phone and hesitated before pressing on Michael's name in his phone. He didn't think Michael would pick up, considering it was almost one in the morning on a school night. But, to Luke's suprise, he picked up. 

"Hello? Luke, are you alright?", he asked, in a tired voice, but still full of worry.

"Michael...", he whispered into the phone, on the verge of tears. He didn't even know why he was so emotional, he just was. 

"It's okay. I'm coming over. Just breath." 

-

When Michael arrived at Luke's house, Luke sat on the front porch, knees up to his chest hugging himself "Hey," Michael put his motorcycle helmet down "What happened? Are y-" he got cut off by Luke running up to him, hugging him. Michael was a little taken back, but then wrapped his arms around the sobbing boy, squeezing him close. Luke buried his face into Michael's neck. 

"What happened, love?" he pulled away, his arms still around Luke, making him look at him. Luke sniffled, wiping his eyes with his sleeve "I- I- I don't, I don't k-know.", he stuttered out. But the truth was, he did know why, he just didn't wanna tell. 

"Shh, it's okay. I'm here." he whispered and pulled Luke into another hug "Let's go inside. Is your mum home?" Luke nodded "S-she's sleeping." 

"Do you want me to stay?" Luke nodded again. Michael reached down and entwined him and Luke's fingers. 

-

"How do you think your mum will react when she sees me in the morning?" Luke shrugged and sat down on his bed, watching Michael take off his shirt, it wasn't in a creepy or sexual way. He just watched him. Because he was so beautiful it was hard not to. 

"I don't know... A little suprised, maybe? I-I'll talk to her in the morning." he said quietly, laying down on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He felt the bed dip and Michael lying down beside him, he rolled over so he was looking at Luke, just admiring him. It made him that Luke had to go through all of that stuff. He wouldn't wish it upon anyone. 

"Get some sleep, yeah? We'll talk tomorrow." Luke nodded and crawled under the covers, Michael as well. Luke hesitated before snuggling closer to Michael who gladly snuggled back. 

"Goodnight, Luke."

"Goodnight... uhm..." Luke hesitated before leaning in, kissing Michael shortly. He blushed and pulled away, turning off the lights. Michael smiled into the dark, a tingling feeling on his lips.