Anxiety [Muke af]

Twenty-five

A freaking beauty

"Can I- Can I follow you home?" Ashton looked up at Luke, hoping he would say yes. He knew he fucked up and he wanted to make it right. 

"Please, Luke- I... I wanna make it up to you," Ashton pleaded. He wasn't a 100% sure why, but the thought of losing Luke as a friend made him so upset. 

Luke shrugged his shoulders, he really wanted to be alone, but Ashton looked so guilty and upset that he couldn't say no, still didn't mean he forgave Ashton, though.

Luke gave him a nod and started walking in the direction of his house. "You know, I was starting to trust you," Luke said, his eyes never leaving the ground. Ashton stopped in his tracks. He trusted him? He did recall Michael talking about Luke having a hard time trusting people, but not giving much detail, obviously. It wasn't his story to tell. Michael just wanted to let Ashton know a bit of the reason why Luke may shy away so he didn't get confused or anything. 

Ashton didn't know how to reply to that so he just hummed shortly and continued walking. 

Not long after they arrived at Luke's house "Uh, listen, Luke- I-I'm really sorry. I know I've said it before, but I really am." Ashton looked at the boy, who was unlocking the door. Luke sighed and turned to him, his eyes glazed over. He swallowed thickly.

"It's okay," he choked out, "You were overwhelmed. I understand. But it still hurt." Ashton nodded, completely understanding "I know. I'll talk to Michael, okay? I'll talk to you tomorrow?" Luke thought about it before answering, "Y-yeah... okay." he waved shortly at Ashton and then walked inside his house, closing the door behind him. 

Ashton sighed and ran a hand through his hair, his eyes lingering at the door. After a bit, he started walking out of Luke's driveway, making his way back to Michael's house. He was terrified of how Michael may react when he returned.

He took a deep breath, opening Michael's door, slowly making his way into Michael's house. He peeked around the corner, into the living room. His heart broke at the scene he saw. Michael was laying one the couch, hugging the picture frame of the drawing Luke made for him.

Ashton coughed, making Michael's head snap up with wide eyes. When he saw Ashton his suprised expression turned into a glare. Ashton frowned and walked further into the living room, sitting down on a chair. Michael sat up and that's when Ashton noticed that his eyes was blood shot and he had dried tear stains on his cheeks. 

"What?" he growled, not even looking at Ashton. 

Ashton flinched a bit at his tone, but said "He's not mad at you. He's just upset... mostly at me." he looked down at his hands. Michael hummed "Why did you do it?" 

The question caught Ashton off guard, even though he knew it was coming. He swallowed thickly and rubbed the back of his neck "I... I- don't know. I think, I was just overwhelmed and wanted... some kind of- closure?" he glanced at Michael, who was just staring at the wall, processing what Ashton just told him. 

Eventually, Michael nodded "Okay. I- I understand that, but I still don't fully forgive you yet." Ashton nodded sadly "-but, how- how long have you felt this way?" 

Ashton shrugged, biting his lip. You could cut the tension with a knife "I don't know, actually. A long time. But then Luke came and made me, like, realize? That I had feelings for you, I guess?" he played with his hands "Will me having a crush on  you change anything?" 

Michael looked up, meeting Ashton''s eyes, smiling sadly "'Course not, Ash." 

Ashton let out a breath of relief and smiled as well "Okay. Good." 

-

"Hi. Is- is Luke home?" Michael smiled sheepishly at Liz "Yeah! come in, come in." she waved him in "He's upstairs." Michael quietly thanked her and went up the stairs to Luke's room.

He knocked twice on the door before entering his room. He saw Luke sitting with his guitar playing some random tune. He jumped with a little yelp, putting his guitar down on his bed. 

"Sorry," Michael said and walked further into his room. Luke didn't say anything, he just hummed and scooted a a tad to the side, so Michael could sit beside him. 

An awkward tension filled the room. Luke wasn't mad at Michael, he was just hurt. Michael sighed and turned to face the blonde "Luke, I... am so sorry. I- I should have pushed him away, but, I was frozen. I think I was just kinda schoked, I think." 

Luke glanced at Michael, blushing when he noticed he was already looking at him "I accept your apology. But, it just hurt a bit..." he trailed off.

Michael looked at him, his eyes scanning his features. He frowned. That was the thing he didn't want to do. Hurt Luke. 

He scooted closer to Luke, quietly asking if he could hold his hand. He could. 

He brought Luke's hand up to his lips and pressed a gently kiss to his fingers, whispering, "It was never my intentions to hurt you. I'm never gonna hurt you again." 

Luke knew Michael was sincere, but there still was that voice in the back of his mind that said he was lying, and that he would hurt him again. 

"Wanna go for a little walk?" Michael offered, still holding Luke's hand. Luke smiled shyly and nodded. Michael stood up and pulled Luke to his feet, gently tucking him along down the stairs.

"We're going for a walk, mum," Luke informed, poking his head into the living room, Liz looked up and smiled "Okay. Be home before dinner," she called, but to no use, as the two boys already was out the door. 

They walked hand in hand to the small playground near Luke's house. Michael sat down on a swing, pulling Luke down to sit on his lap. Michael wrapped his arms around his waist to keep him secure, then started to slowly swing back and forth.

"The drawing you made --it's so beautiful." Michael placed his chin on Luke's shoulder. 

Luke blushed. He honestly forgot all about it "Oh, I- Thank you. It was just a way for me to show you, that I appreciate what you do for me," he said and rubbed his arm. Michael kissed his cheek and said, "I'll hang it up in my room later." 

Luke blushed an even deeper shade and stuttered out a 'thank you'

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Okay, a bit boring chapter? I just didn't really know what to write? But hopefully it was okay anyways.

Questions: Ashton apologizing to Luke and Michael? Would you forgive him? Are you mad at him? Muke making up? Them at the playground? 

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