Dear Friend,
I've been feeling really depressed over the past days. I even missed school today. My friends and Lauren were worried about me, but I lied to them and said that I suddenly got a cold. Thankfully, they believed me. I don't like lying to them, especially Lauren, but I just really need some time alone.
Six days ago, February 10, was the third year death anniversary of my parents. I know I didn't write to you about it on that day, but it's because I've been trying to forget. Being with Dinah and Normani on Valentine's Day provided me some short-term happiness, but whenever I see a wall in my house that has a photo of my parents, it makes me utterly sad and depressed. Not just the photos either, everything that reminds me of them from the couches in the house that we used to all sit on to watch movies to the simplest thing like magnets on the refrigerator that my parents would buy everytime they'd gone to go to a new state. It's not the type of sadness I had before where I was blaming myself for what happened. It's more so that I think about how I will never see them again and the thought of it scares me. I know what's happened has already happened and there's no way to change the past, but that's what makes me even more depressed and scared. It's not like they went on a trip and will someday find their way back home. It's the fact that they're never going to come back. Ever.
This is a lot for me to take in right now. I know it's been three years, but at this time of every year since, it's been getting worse. My grandmother is setting up an appointment for me to meet with my therapist on Wednesday so I hope that helps. Sorry for the short letter; I don't really have much to say.
Yours Truly,
Camila
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Yours Truly, Camila (Camren Fanfic)
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