Yours Truly, Camila (Camren Fanfic)

March 3, 2015 (II)

"Listen I know we're broken up and all, but before we were even a couple, we were friends. So I wanted to-" I discontinued Lauren from further talking as I tackled her into a tight embrace. My birthday wish coming true.

Prior to blowing my candles today, I didn't know what to wish for. All that came to mind was Lauren and so that's what I wished for, to see her today. At first, I had my doubts because due to past birthday wishes, they'd never come true. For example, I wished for a unicorn on my 7th birthday and an unlimited supply of bananas on my 13th birthday and those never came true. But this time, it did come true. Maybe I should be more realistic about my wishes.

"Hi," I said to the girl as we let go of one another.

"Hey," Lauren responded, her smile never leaving her face. "Happy birthday sweet eyes."

"Thanks." I continued, "Listen, I was going to invite you, but I didn't know how and if you would even come." Now seemingly rambling, "and with everything that's happened, I thought you were mad... You sat away from me in art... And we hadn't talked... I just... I'm sorry Lauren."

"Camz," Lauren started. "You don't ever have to be sorry for trying to do what's best for yourself and for me."

"But I hurt you," I told her, looking at the grass below me, recalling what had happened between us last week. "I pushed you away when you were only trying to help me."

"I'm not going to lie and say that you didn't hurt me because the truth is you did." Lauren took ahold of my face, meeting our eyes together again. "But then I realized that you did it because you wanted what's best for yourself, for me, for our relationship. You pushed me away because you didn't want me to carry on your problems. You wanted to get help for yourself. And I don't blame you for any of that, Camz."

"I made you cry," I told Lauren, the feeling of guilt and sorrow washing over me.

"Yeah." Lauren continued, "and you've also made me smile, and laugh, and I could name so many more adjectives that you've made me feel but most importantly, you made me feel loved. You made me feel things that I never even knew I could even feel about another person. I know that's such a cliché thing to say, but it doesn't make it any less true. Camz, I love you so much and nothing about that will ever change even if you push me away or make me cry a billion times. I will still love you."

"Lauren?" I said as tears streamed down my face due to Lauren's words. "Can I tell you something that my therapist told me?" Lauren nodded in response, her eyes seeming as though it was fighting its own tears from descending. "Well, she told me something about how our feelings make us human. And I really thought about what she said because it made me think of the feelings I've felt for you. It made me think of how nervous I was to confess my feelings for you; of how thrilled and delighted I was when you asked me to be your girlfriend at homecoming, and when you took me on top of the Ferris wheel to ask me again," I continued, not wanting to finish the rest of the sentence as it recalled unwanted memories, "of how jealous I became when you kept on visiting Lucy at the hospital, and how devastated I was when I forced you to leave. Lauren, you brought all those emotions out in me. You make me feel human." Lauren finally let out the streams of tears in her eyes as they had been fighting to escape, but her soft smile was still evident. "Sometimes I feel like my feelings are heightened when I'm with you because I guess I just really love you and the simple things become so much more than they are but in a good way. To sum it up, you basically make me feel like I'm superhuman."

"You're too perfect for this world," Lauren acknowledged.

"I don't know about that," I replied. "I'm kind of a mess if you couldn't already tell."