My Bi Professor [COMPLETED]

12-"Contain myself."

Ash-

"I don't know..." Mr. Lonsdale sighed. We were so close, our breaths mingled, "... if I can..." I cursed myself for even asking it. I cursed myself for not wanting to be with Andi, the future mother of my future child, "... contain myself." His fingers went up to brush across my chin. His taunting was painful, and I couldn't wait any longer.

I grabbed the back of his head, forcing our lips together. He pushed me against the wall, and my fingers trailed along his spine.

I knew what we were doing was wrong. I knew that I would regret this in the long run. But... it felt so right in the moment.

I came here for stupid and selfish reason, besides the fact that I had to work.

The kiss ended as we both pulled air into our deprived lungs. "Why did you ask all this today, Miller?" Professor Lonsdale asks with the Australian accent that I loved so much.

I sigh, and shake my head. I try to put on a smile, and get another kiss, but he pulls away. "Answer me." He says.

I groan. "Fine." I reluctantly agree. Just telling the story made the memories flood my head.

"I have to come clean, Andi..." I tell her as we lay on her bed.

She positions herself so she can perfectly see me. "About what?" Andi asks.

I wiggle out of her grasp, getting more serious. "I don't think I can do this, Andi." I admit.

"You mean be a father?"

I shake my head. "No... I don't think I can do this," I move my hand between the two of us, gesturing our relationship.

"Why? Is it because of the baby?"

"It has nothing to do with the baby, Andi." I sigh, knowing I had to come clean. If not for me than for her. "I don't love you like I used to."

She sits up. "I don't expect the spark to be the exact same, Ash. And you shouldn't either."

"But I don't feel any spark, Andi! I don't. I'm sorry."

"A-are you..." tears glisten in Andi's ocean like eyes, "...breaking up with me?"

I exhale a deep breath before responding. "Yes. I'm sorry. I should go." I stand up for her bed, leaving without letting her get a word out.

I storm into my dorm, ignoring Nathan's questions. I lock myself in my room that night, until the morning comes.

"So are you just using me? Am I a rebound?" Mr. Lonsdale asks as I finish.

I shake my head, putting my hand on his shoulder. "No, no! Not at all!" I try to explain.

He doesn't look at me. "...What about the kid?" He asks.

I shake my head. "I'm not sure. We have an appointment - actually our second - tomorrow, one that I will insist on going to. We'll learn if the baby is healthy, and..." I wasn't really sure what to expect, if I'm going to be honest. We were ten weeks into the pregnancy, and all we knew was that the baby was healthy two weeks ago.

"And what about..." He asks, forcing me to look at his handsome mocha eyes.

He doesn't directly say it, but I knew what he was getting at. I was his student. He was my teacher.

I shrug with a long sigh. "Is it a deal breaker to you?" I question, grabbing his arm to pull him closer.

He rests his hand on the back of my neck, connecting our lips together once again.

After we pull away, he has a smirk on his face. "Does that answer your question?" He deviously asks.

The kiss brought joy into my body. I chuckle slightly. "Well, I hope so," I answer, a smile on my face. I sigh. "But, it still is a factor. What were to happen if someone were to catch us just then?" I question.

He shrugs, talking his hands off me and forcing mine off him. "Fair, fair." He replies. "But if nothing can happen right here and now, then... you might have to work overtime." He says with a wink.

I feel a blush rising up to my cheeks, and I try to cover it by looking down. "Yes, Sir..." I say, an embarrassed smile on my face.

The bell rings, and I give a small wave before I walk out of Professor Lonsdale's office. "Bye, Professor." I tell him.

"It's back to Keiynan, when we're alone. I'll see you after school, Ash." His smirk never left his face as I rush out of his office.

In the halls, I run into Nathan. "What happened, man?" He asks, remembering last night.

I groan, looking around. "What do you think, Nate? Who do you see around us?" I ask, slightly depressed. The events a few moments ago left my mind, and I no longer had happiness bubbling in me. "I broke up with Andi last night." I confess.

The pace we were previously walking at slowed. "Wait, what?!" Nathan screams.

I nod my head. "I broke up with Andi." I repeat. "But don't worry. Everything with the kid will be taken care of." I try to convince him.

He shakes his head, sighing. "It's not the kid I'm worried about. Are you okay?" Nathan questions.

I nod my head. "Fine. I'll tell you everything later, but-," the bell rings for class rings, "- class is starting."

I run off to class, immediately greeted by the man I just kissed moments ago. I try to suppress another blush as his gaze meets mine and he smiles. I run to the back of the class, and Andi glares at me as she walks in.

Besides that, the day was normal. Except for the fact that I only hung out with Nathan, and didn't even encounter Andi or Phoenix. This was fine by my, of course. Except for the fact that since we were a few weeks in, we had to go to the doctors appointment, and I had to meet Andi then.

I try to ignore what was soon to come. I tried to focus on school, and my friends. Nothing regarding love.

And, it worked.

Until the bell rung.