8-"I'm pregnant!"

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Ash-

During class, Keiynan, as I now know him, kept avoiding my gaze. I knew we had to be safe.

But, Andi kept trying to get my gaze. I couldn't bare to look at her, and my heart burned knowing that I might lose such a good friend.

Keiynan smirks at me as I exit the class, and I awkwardly walk into the halls, trying to lose Andi.

The whole day, it went like that.

I'd exit a class, and try to avoid Andi in the halls. This, consequently, also meant avoiding Nathan and Phoenix, leaving my day quite boring and lonely. But, I'd have it all figured out soon.

Back with Keiynan in his office after school, I nervously fidget with my hands as he does work. "And after that we have Gonzalez!" I smile, remembering my idea to obtain Rick Gonzalez as a face for a movie.

But, worry still overwhelmed me. "What's wrong?" He asks, clearly seeing it.

I shrug. "Nothing," I tell him.

He stands up, motioning for me to do the same. "Ash..." He sighs, walking closer to me. Before, I'd back up. But, this time, I keep my place. I've seen the kindness in him, and I felt safe. "What is it?" He asks again.

I groan, giving in. "It's Andi. I'm breaking up with her after this," I confess.

He sighs out of realization. "Ahh. I get that must be hard for you." He sympathizes. "And I know this isn't a good time for this, but... between us... I feel as if we should lay out some ground rules, just to be safe?" He says. His voice raises at the end, making the statement sound like a question. I nod my head, allowing him to continue. "Well, no flirting in public, first of all. Secondly, this has to stay a secret. Thirdly... well, I don't know. We just have to make this a secret." I silently agree, and he puts his hand on my shoulder. "Ash, if you don't want this to happen... any of this... just tell me. I know it will be hard."

I sigh. "I know, Keiynan. I know." The clock hits 5, and I peck his lips quickly before running out of his office.

I run to a bench on campus that me and Andi would always sit and talk on. I see she's already there, waving me over.

I slow my pace, panting slightly. The air was warm enough at this point that the sleeves on why sweatshirt were rolled up. "Hey, Ash." She greets.

I nod as a greeting. "Andi, can I just say-," I try to start.

"I'm pregnant!" She interrupts, making my jaw drop To the ground.

"Y-you.... you're... pregnant?!" I repeat.

She nods her head slowly. "A-are you happy?" She nervously asks.

I shake my head, trying to clear my mind. "No, no, it's not that. I... this is... a lot to take in." I wasn't sure what to do now. I couldn't break up with her when she's in this state! She is holding my child!

She laughs, as if trying to lighten the mood. "Good. What were you going to talk to me about?" She questions, seeming more at ease now.

I wave it off. "I-it's not important." I assure her. "So... who knows?

"Just me, you, and Phoenix."

"Can I tell Nathan?"

"Of course! I just needed to know how you felt about it first."

"When did you find out?"

She hesitates. "Saturday afternoon."

I burst up from the bench. "Saturday?! And you didn't think to tell me?!" I scream. This news could have changed so much.

"I'm sorry. I was nervous." She seemed almost scared.

I sighed, rubbing my temples. I sat back down. "It's okay. I'm sorry." I apologize. "Is it mine?" I resume my questions.

"Yes." She firmly answers.

"How do you know?" I was slightly paranoid from her not telling me that, she, Andi, my girlfriend, was pregnant.

"You're the only one I've had sex with recently. The time after the party."

I nod my head. "Okay. Great. This is great." I try to convince myself. "But won't this get a little tough? Like, do I need to do anything to support you? Do you need anything from me?"

"No, no. I'm fine for now."

"For now. What about when you need a medication of some kind? We're not rich. We have no money."

"It'll be okay." She grabs my hand, and I practically flinch.

A tear falls from my eye, blowing across my face in the warm breeze. "What if I'm not a good dad?" I quietly say to myself.

She shakes her head. "No! You'll be great! Perfect." She leans her head towards me. "Just like you are as a boyfriend." She kisses me, and I felt guilty. Both to Andi and Keiynan. I didn't want to be with Andi. I wanted to be with Keiynan.

But, if I know anything, I know this is a sign. A sign for me to stay with with Andi.

Dating my professor wouldn't even be smart, right?

My first instinct was Colton.

So, after a few more minutes of talking, we part ways. I immediately pull out my phone, calling Colton.

"Hey A-," he tries to say on the other line.

I cut him off. "Andi's pregnant." I say.

"What?" I couldn't tell what was in his voice. Happiness? Surprise? Fear? Anger? Sadness? "Are you excited?"

I shrug, though he couldn't see. "Yeah." I lie.

Colton saw right through it. "What's wrong, Ash? Do you not like her anymore?" He asks.

Tears swell in my eyes. "I don't know, Cole! I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!" My hands flail in the air as I struggle to contain my emotions. "I... I don't think so, Colton." I admit.

I hear him sigh over the other line. "So what are you going to do?" He asks.

I manage to hold back the tears as I approach the door. "I don't know. I can't ask her to get an abortion, not that I want her to get one, and I want my child to have a father." I tell him. "But, I gotta go. Nathan's expecting me."

Colton sighs. "I get it. Just come to me when you have your answer."

I nod my head, but once again remember he couldn't see me. "I will. Bye."

My next instinct; Keiynan.

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