My Bi Professor [COMPLETED]

30-"'Till then."

Okay, it's 12:03 A.M., and I'm still awake. I have school and football practice tomorrow. Why do I do this?!

But, anyways, here's the chapter. I figured, why not post it now? It's technically Monday.

I'm basically killing myself. I don't sleep.

Help.

But, enjoy!

Ash-

Andi and I were excused from school the next day. Mr. Bower understood what Addison was to me.

We went to Addison's place to clean it out, as much as we didn't want to. We decided what we'd keep close, and what we didn't need too much.

We also found a will that she made.

We didn't open it, of course. The envelope said, Addison Albertson's Will. Read in front of only close friends and family listed below:

The list wasn't that long, and I knew everybody on there. They were, as she said, family and close friends.

The list included me, Andi, and Colton, as well as some other people, such as Andi's uncle, Drew, Andi's cousin, Sheila, and others.

We decided we should also start planning the funeral. Some of Andi's relatives had been called, and they decided they'd do most of the funeral work, though we'd do some of it.

The day was ultimately... exhausting.

A week later, Nathan had finally decided to talk to me. Our friend group was back together, but it was still slightly awkward.

I had promised them all that I would no longer lie to them. They all also promised, which is how it got out that Nathan and Andi had started dating.

It was, honestly, slightly heartbreaking to hear.

I was over Andi, but their happy relationship made me realize what I had lost in not one, but two people.

And, I didn't want the potential of either of my friends getting hurt. Then I'd have to take sides. And when Andi and I broke up, it broke up the friend group. I couldn't go through that again.

My relationship with Keiynan was awkward, and it was clear all the sexual tension between us. But, we only had a week until the party, and then we'd be almost done with the year.

I was entering his office that morning, still uneasy from Addison's death. "Hey, Professor," I greeted.

I could almost see him flinch as I called him that. "Miller." He greeted, his head buried in his papers as they had been since one weeks ago, when we decided on the party date.

I stood in front of his desk. "Any job for me today?" I asked, hopeful.

Keiynan—Mr. Lonsdale—put down the pencil he had been using. "Well, ya got anything to wear to the party? Less formal than a tux, but more formal than..." he gestured to my clothes.

I was wearing a comfortable blackshirt and jeans. I shrugged, saying, "I'll find something."

"Well," he responded, "the planning is almost done, but I'll need your help that day to set everything up. I'll pull you out early from class, so make sure to inform your teachers."

I nodded. "So, nothing today?"

"Well, you can either leave or go grab me a coffee. Your choice."

I nodded. As much as I wanted to spend time with Mr. Lonsdale, I knew I'd be too tempted. "Well, I guess I'll see you after school, then?"

He shook his head. "No, no. That won't be necessary. You don't have to come until the morning of the party."

I puckered my lips. "Well, 'till then, I guess." I waved.

He waved back. "'Till then."

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Keiynan-

I wanted to spend as much time with Ash—or Miller, or whatever—as I could, but I couldn't. I was still 'together' with Sarah, but not for long.

I couldn't tell him. Then he'd get too excited, or too hopeful, or do something that could make the situation worse.

"'Till then," I told him.

He walked out of my office, but my words—or rather, his words—brought a smile to my face.

It implied that there'd be a next time.

Now, I know that that was stupid, because I told him he had to see me again for professional reasons, but I was desperate for all the hope I could get.

Because, truly, he could have moved on to someone his own age, who he doesn't have to sneak around with, to someone who isn't his teacher, to someone who doesn't have a blackmailing ex... to someone who wasn't me.

The thought broke my heart. I couldn't imagine not having him after all this time.

I called my friend Elliot Knight—remember him? The guy that held the party where Ash and I kissed during 7 minutes in heaven, after we were fighting about Sarah?—and he knew the whole situation.

"You just gotta wait it out," he told me after I expressed my worries. "I mean, you only have, what, a week left? You can do that."

"But what if he already found somebody new?" I asked.

He sighed. "Well, there's nothing you can do about that, right? I mean, if he has moved on, you can't change that."

"But what if I could have?" I contemplated. "What if I just quit my job, what if I had stayed with Ash, despite the circumstances?"

Elliot laughed. "Dude, you really think Sarah would have let you do that? I never understood why you dated her, but I understand that she has great powers."

I relaxed my body, realizing that he was right. "Yeah, I guess. I'm just worried, I guess."

"It'll be okay, Kee. You've got this. Any girl, or guy, would be lucky to have you."

"Thanks. Bye."

"Bye."

Even after Elliot hung up, I kept my phone against my ear for some time.

It was as if I was frozen, thinking, deciding about what to do.

Only one more week, I reminded myself. Only one more week.