For You | bws

chapter seventy three

i wanna boop his nose and run my fingers through his hair

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"I can't find the bottle!" I hissed, resting my palm on my head in frustration. Lily hasn't stopped crying for 20 minutes straight and it's driving me insane. Brad is downstairs in his studio, which is soundproof, so he won't hear anything. I hold the top of the feeding bottle in my hand as I frantically rushed around the nursery, opening and closing draws to see if it's in any - it's not. My hair is all over the place, my parting not even a parting anymore since it's just a heap of hair on my head.

I stood still with my head in my hands, closing my eyes to try and drown out the noise of Lily's ear piercing cries - but nothing works. I've never known a baby that cries this much!

"Looking for this?" Brad's voice came from the door of the nursery. My head snapped up from my hands and with watery eyes, I looked at his figure as he held the bottle filled with milk in his hand.

"Y-yes." I stuttered and made my way to Brad, grabbing the bottle out of his hand. I rushed back to the screaming baby who lay on her back on top of the changing unit, her face all red from crying and the tears. I fixed the top of the bottle on to it and placed it down next to me before I picked Lily up and rested her in my arms. I moved her body gently to get her to lay comfortably in my arms. I then grabbed the bottle of warm milk and placed the tip of the teat in Lily's mouth; her crying immediately stopping as she started to drink the milk. I let out a relieved sigh and smiled - finally!

Lily drank until the bottle was empty. Now she needs burping, so I sat down in the chair near the window and moved her upright so she could be burped. I patted her back and looked out of the window while I did so, completely oblivious to the fact that Brad is still in the doorway staring at me.

My eyes moved from the outside to Brad, his eyes never left mine. I could sense a hint of sadness in his gaze, which upset me. I wonder what he's sad about?

After a couple of minutes Lily had fallen asleep against me, her cheek pressed against my shoulder and her arms hung loosely at her sides. I carefully removed her from me and lay her in her cot, the mobile above her playing soft twinkling noises as she slept. Once I knew she was asleep, I exited the room with a gentle close to the door.

Brad's head was hung low as we stood in front of each other. I can definitely sense something is not right.

"Brad, what's wrong?" I said sadly as I cupped his cheek in my hand. His face lifted to level with mine. He let out a sigh before speaking.

"You seem really stressed and uptight.. I don't like seeing you like that." Brad's hand took ahold of mine that held his cheek and held it in his hands instead. Brad is the most caring person I know. God bless him.

"Oh, Brad. You don't have to worry about me. We both knew having a baby would be extremely stressful and tiring, this is only the reality of parenting. There's no need to worry, baby." I squeezed his hands and a smile appeared on my face.

"The next time she wakes up crying, let me see to her. You've done it every night, so you deserve a break." Brad tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear and smiled at me. I nodded with a smile at his cuteness.

"Thank you, Brad." I hugged him tightly, the feeling of butterflies grew, nothing was better than being in his embrace.

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Brad

I feel awful. I feel absolutely awful. I desperately want to tell her, it's killing me knowing I can't; not yet anyway.

I can't crush her like this. I can't bare the thought of Maddie being upset, it'll kill me - it'll break my heart.

I shake my head away from those thoughts. It's not something I want to concentrate on right now. All I want to do is spend some time with my two favourite girls; my beautiful wife and my gorgeous little girl.

The door creaked as I slowly opened it, revealing a glow of sun that beamed through the window opposite Lily's cot. The sun gave the nursery an orange glow, the whole room looking calm and relaxing to be in.

I left the door slightly open, afraid of shutting it will wake Lily from her peaceful sleep.

"Hey, babygirl." I whispered as I gently grazed my finger over Lily's small hand. I smiled as she flinched slightly, "You know, you're very special to your mummy and I. You were the best gift we could ever ask for. Never, ever forget that. Your mummy and I love you very, very much; we will never stop loving you." I ramble on.. "The only thing I ask of you, is for you to be good to your mummy. She's having a hard time at the moment and I don't think I can make it any better.. but I know you can. You, my little angel, can make your mummy smile a beautiful smile.." Lily's lips moved upwards into a smile which made my heart warm, "I love you, my little sweetheart."

I sat on the chair that was next to the cot, I sat the height of the cot with my arm stretched out so I can hold Lily's hand. Her fist clenching and unclenching every so often - especially when I spoke. My heart beat fast as I sat, deep in thought, looking at her; admiring her in every way I can.

This is a moment I will cherish forever.

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brad with babies is the key to my heart I canttttttt