Forgotten Hallucinations

-15: Meet-

Scarlet's POV

"Can I really?" he says. Can he what? Save me? Bring me back with some form of love? Make me not feel even more pain? Help me out of my life?

This life was too unfortunate. It has never been more unfair than this. After reading that note, I felt guilty. Even though they were words of encouragement, I realized that I couldn't live up to his hopes. He must've forgotten me by now anyway, so there is no point. I have just been managing up till this point, keeping a distant but connect relationship with few people, that will only be hurt by me more.

Taye has tried as a friend. He was by me and encouraged me. When I was going to give up, he held me up. He replaced the void in my life with a little pouch of hope. Even after I would threaten him, beat him, scream, yell, kick him out, ignored him... he just waited for me. He waited for the right time to come and comfort me. He watched my mental breakdowns. He saw my struggles.

When I first started to be around him, I made it so clear that I wasn't interested in a friendship, especially with a guy. He didn't care. He was persistent. He didn't ask why I yelled out people or had a problem with them. He didn't question why I didn't like with men. He just pushes his way into my life. He was a burden. A burden that was worth it though.

I just wish I could see him one last time and say sorry....

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A bright light shined a far in the darkness. I turned my back to it and walked away. I didn't deserve to go back.

Where do you think you are going?

"Where else?"

You can't just end it like that. There is still more to come, good and bad.

"Naw, I'm good. I don't need to suffer like that anymore. I don't need to bother people anymore."

Go back. The figure began to split into many forms, preventing me from moving that point. Go back they repeat. You will be needed and wanted at some point. Just wait and be careful not get overwhelmed. Don't let us get to you before you get to yourself....

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My eyes feel so heavy but I manage to open them to white ceiling.

It's cold.

I hear machines beeping.

".....she'll be alright?" asks one voice.

"Why would you care? I still don't understand why you are hear and how you know her?!" says another.

"That is something between me and her."

"You bast-, Hey you're awake."

My vision becomes clearer and I see....

Taye with the reddest and most tired eyes I have seen. "Yeah.... what happened..." my voice trails off.

J sits on the other side of the room. "Hey."

"Hey," I answer. "You brought me here?"

"Yeah, what do you expect? You were in there for too long and I didn't know what else to do. Have anything suggestions?" We laugh a little before I noticed the pain in my head and the bandages around my lower arm.

Oh. I'm alive. I had to let that dwell a little before getting the true meaning of it.

"But... Ara..." Taye looked serious. "Where the actual fuck were you this entire time?" I thought his eyes were going to kill me slowly. And this was the first time, in all the moments and time I spent with that he ever cussed. "Cause I don't know I got here either..."