Colors// Mike Chang Glee

Filler

The doctors left soon after, leaving us three alone in the room with my brothers broken body.

"Mike" I meant to say, but it came out as a mixture of a croak and a whisper. It got his attention. He looked over at me before hesitantly going over to his friend. I followed slowly behind watching his expression change from sadness, to worry and shock. I followed his gaze to his hand. I slipped a tear but I pushed it away from the back of my hand. I jumped slightly at the strange touch on my shoulder. I bit my thumb nail, looking over my shoulder to see my dad with his hand rested on my shoulder. I swallowed away the hardness in my throat as I looked back over to my brother.

Mike turned and gave me a concerned look. I sighed and nodded my head still biting on my nail. His head shot back to Andy examining him.

"I should go to McKinley. I should probably be getting all of Andy's work. He'll need to catch up if he wants to graduate. I love you Autumn" my dad spoke in a broken and shattered tone kissing the top of my head taking the car keys that were hanging from my back pocket and walked out of the room leaving only Mike and I with Andrew.

"This is so much worse than I could've imagined" Mike spoke for the first time since we arrived at the hospital. I now stood next to him, looking down at my brothers beautifully beaten up face."Yeah" I said just as my voice cracked. I hadn't eaten all day, and I hadn't eaten dinner last night. I wasn't gonna tell anyone. But I started to begin to feel lightheaded. I've done this before, lasted a week before Andy and my dad caught on, this would go away after the first 3 Days.

"This is all my fault" my voice sounded raw, and groggy to my own ears. Mikes shoulders softened and he moved his gaze across Andy to me.

"No" he said in a soft tone."No it isn't. This is no ones fault" he paused. I walked over to the other side of my brother and sat down at the foot of his bed.

"Andy...." I began."I don't know if you can hear me but, I love you. I do, I really do. The doctor said you'll be waking up soon. But-" I stopped as my voice cracked. Next thing I knew Mikes hand was on my shoulder. I watched my brothers chest rise up and down as his breathing had become steady. I laid my hand on his crushed one. It felt weird, his fingers were gone and in replacement were these spikey black things sticking out of his bruised skin. 

I sobbed. I pulled my hand away and I covered my face in a shame. Ashamed of crying. Crying while my brother was still alive. Crying in front of Mike. Crying because I wasn't strong enough to withstand this.

"But I don't know if waking up is the best thing for you" I cried and now Mike had both his hands in my shoulders. "Hey" he whispered. I stood up and collided my body with his as one of my hands wrapped around Mikes torso and the other was still on my face muffling my cries."I'm so sorry" my voice came out muffled against Mikes shirt.

"Shhhhhh" he hushed me."Shhhhhhh" is all he said. My grip on him tightened, I could feel the warmth radiating off of him and onto me. I knew I was cold, I was always cold ever since yesterday. I breathed against his shirt as his hands ran up and down my back reassuringly.

"I am so sorry" I croaked once I contained myself. I disconnected from Mike and backed away."I'm sorry. I'm a mess right now and I have no one to talk to.... Andy" I swallowed the hard lump in my throat."I would tell him everything. If anything ever happened to him. Like this... I don't know what I'd do" I giggled to soften the mood.

"Autumn...." Mike trailed off, looking me deep in the eye.

"I know this is really hard. And I know it's only going to get worse once Andy wakes up. With therapy, the bills, the car. I know. I understand. But. Trust me, you want him to wake up. You are falling apart without him. You may not know it. But I can tell, because I'm your best friend. You're falling apart and the only person to fix it is Andy. You don't want him like this all his life. You want him to wake up" Mike explained sincerely.