Colors// Mike Chang Glee

Long Filler

That night Andy and I spoke. He didn't remember any of what happened that night at Matt's party and we cried, and he finally told me how he really feels. That he feels lost without the football team. He didn't remember Chris trying me at Matt's party, he doesn't remember the real reason why he yelled at Mike and he feels horrible for costing our dad so much money. He said the only reason he's doing drugs is because he can't handle the anxiety at school with the non-stop questions from everyone asking him what happened, how he feels, if he is okay. He said it was stressful and I told him I didn't judge him, I understood what he was going through.

That night, I actually managed to get to sleep. I could sleep knowing Andy was okay. I could sleep knowing my dad will get the help he needs with bills. I could sleep knowing Mike was going to be okay. I feel so bad for having to drag him into all this. It's not his fault I'm such a fuck up.

Once I woke up I took a shower, which was a need. My hair became greasy and I felt gross. I hopped out of the shower quickly and blowdried my hair. I straightened it once it was dry and threw on a beanie, some skinny jeans, and a hoodie. I finally had a reason for wearing a beanie and hoodie out in public without getting looked at strangely because its 'summer and I should wear shorts and have my hair in a bun'. I let Andy have the bathroom for the remainder of the morning and after our little night last night, he needed to take some time in the bathroom.

I made my way downstairs feeding Rusty and drinking my usual coffee order Cafe La Papa style. Dad still seemed stressed and I could only wonder how he can keep up the inspiration to keep writing.

"Hey, do you think you could take Rusty with you today? I know I have no right to ask but its his first time alone since I found him and I'd rather have him in your company then by himself having a panic attack and tearing up the whole house" I explained leaning against the refrigerator, inhaling the comforting smell of fresh coffee. My dad took a sip of is coffee before replying, "Yes. I'm okay with that".

A few moments later Andy came downstair with his book bag slung on his good arm. He wore a sweet hat that covered his ears with a little pom pom on the tip of his head, along with a jacket, some jeans, and a long-sleeved shirt. His hair was still long but it was well maintained and styled along with a baby soft face. I couldn't help but smile up at his appearance. 

I understand him, and he understands me now. I'm guessing my dad noticed the difference in Andy's behavior just by this morning due to the smile on his face. "I'm happy to see you both in a good mood" he said with a smile still lingering on his lips. I couldn't help but mirror his expression.

He drove us to Mike's and Andy sat in the front due to the need of an explanation once parents weren't present in the car. Mike didn't say anything the whole drive to school and as usual, we all separated from each other, all three of us. I took Andy by the arm and dragged him to the choir room, a little ritual Mike and I had since the day he's had problems with the football team. They've lightened up, but I just didn't want to start it up again.

 Once we were safely in the room I've come to love, I saw Mike's face as Andy and I made our way to him. He was still confused and a little bit broader when he got to his feet like he needed to be strong in front of Andy.

"Mike, its okay. We spoke last night... I can explain everything to you in Glee alright?" I spoke, still holding Andy's arm. Mike shook his head, looking down at me with a glint of something in his eye. But what was it? I couldn't tell, it was a flash of something I haven't seen from him before. almost like he was trying to hide something from me, but what? I decided to let it go, it probably was nothing anyways.

"Andy" I said shifting my gaze from Mike to my brother. Andy jerkily looked at me with furrowed eyebrows. "Mike and I thought you knew Chris was the guy from the party, that's why we've been so distant from you. I couldn't wrap my head around why you would forgive him for something like that, so Mike and I didn't know how to react. I'm sorry" I said honestly.