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Chapter 19

Marks pov
"M-Mark, can you come get me?" Jace asked

"Why, what's wrong bud?" I asked

"I just n-need you to pick me up." Jace told me. He sounded like he was crying

"Okay, I'm on my way. I'll be there in ten." I told him

"Okay, markimoo." He said

I grabed my car keys and left a noye on Seans door since he was recording.

Went to go pick up Jace. Sounded like another panic attack. I'll be back soon.
~Mark

I jumped into my car and drove to the school. When I arrived Jace was al ready to go. I signed him out and we jumped in the car.

"So, what happened?" I asked

"Anxiety happened." He stated

"Another panic attack?" I asked

"Yah. I just... I wish they'd stop." He wished

"Well... We can talk to your therapist about it. See if there's anything she can do." I said sympathetically

"And M-Mark. S-Shane left me." Jace said

"Oh, come here bud." I said hugging him and walking to the car. " Did he say why?" I asked

"His parents threatened to kick him out." He said crying

"I see." Was all I could think to say

We drove for a little and eventually he had another mood swig and it was like nothing ever happened. I took him out to eat ad the it was therapy. We walked into the amazing blue building that looked like a hospital. We checked in at the front desk and went to the waiting room. Jace went straight over to the little white board they had and wrote a quote on it. "You can't start the next chapter in your life if you keep re-reading the last one."

"Very true, bud." I said smiling

"Hey, Jace." Shae said smiling

"Hey!" Jace said with a big smile on his face as he followed her back. "Are you coming Markimoo?" He asked

"Yah, sure bud." I smiled getting up to follow behind

We walked into a normal sized room. It was all white with a blue trim. The room had a white bored behind the door, a Minecraft painting next to a bookshelf, a desk in the far left corner, three plactic chairs, a box of bean bags, and a few toys on the window sill. Jace and I sat in two of the plastic chairs and Share sat in the chair across from us.

"So, Jace, how was your week?" Shae asked

"I threatened to hit some kid and got restrained by my principal." He said crossing his arms

"Why did you threatened to hit him?" She asked

"Because he was being an asshole and then he 'tazed' me." Jace explained

"Tazed?" Shae asked

"He took his fingers and jabbed them into my side which tickles but also hurts in a way. Then I threatened it hit him if he did it again. The principal told him to leave and on his way out he hit my arm and called me a day. So I stood up and started to run down the hall after him but the principal grabbed me." He explained and started throwing bean bags at the wall. Each one hitting with a large thud.

"So this obviously mad you mad?" Shae asked

"Oh I was more than mad. I wanted to beat his fucking face in." Jace said throwing another bean bag at the wall, this time with more force behind it.

"Has he been like this a lot?" Shae asked

"I mean, he's had a lot of odd mood swings, yah. Teens are supposed to have mood swings but not like that. One minute he's fine, then something so tiny can piss him off like that." I explained

"So it's not just when he's here. Does he have panic attacks often?" Shae asked

"One daily at the least." I told her

She write all that down. Then she looked at Jace who was now sitting on the floor with a dinky car.

"Jace?" She asked softly

"Hm?" He hummed

"What are you doing?" She asked him like she was speaking to a five year old

"Running over the assholes body." He stated simply

"Who's the asshole?" She asked

"Mike." He said simply as he continued to run over the Barby doll

"Why is Mike an asshole?" Shae asked as if she didn't already know

"Because, he just is." Jace said beginning to get worked up again

"But why bud?" She continues to push

"He used to hurt me. But most of the time it was because I didn't do something he asked me to, so I deserved it." He said

I felt my heart shatter when he said that. Just because he didn't do something he thought that he deserved to be beat.

"Can you tell me how he used to hurt you?" Shae asked

"Why do you have to be so nosy?" He asked beginning to get earatated

"I just want to know bud." She said calmly

"Well what if I don't want to tell you?" He asked

"Then you don't have to tell me." She said

Jace's face dropped and he started playing the the sleeve of his shirt. "He used to hit me, a lot. And sometimes... Sometimes he touch me in bad places." Jace said

"And what's it like living with Mark and Sean?" She asked

"It's amazing!" He said with a huge smile on his face

"Did you bring me your homework?" Shae asked

"Oh yah!" He said grabbing three peuces of paper out of his bag and handed them to shae.

Shea quickly took the time to read them over. "You didn't do them all?" She asked

"No. I forgot." Jace told her

"Okay. Can you do this for me?" Shea asked holding our a clip board

Jace sighed. "Okay." He said grabbing the clip board from her

"So, Mark. Tell me about what Jace has been like the past few weeks. I know he started testosterone so he must be pertty happy about that?" Shae asked

"He's definitely happy about starting T, but... When we got him he was kind of like how he is now. He used to cut himself a lot. He's attempted a couple times. We thought it was just depression at first... But then the mood swings started to happen. We weren't sure what was going on. Then Liam, Jace's adopted brother, mentioned BPD, so we brought him here." I explained

"Yah. I definitely think Jace is suffering from BPD. I want to try and get him in to see the phcyatrist, just for her to see if meds might help him out." Shae said

"Okay." I said feeling a little fidgity. My ADHD is kicking in.

"All done." Jace said sounding upset as he passed Share the clip board

"What's wrong bud?" I asked

"Nothing." He said sighing again

"Are you sure?" I asked feeling worried

He nodded.

After another ten minutes of talking Shae said goodbye. We now had a phycologist appointment to go to in a couple hours so I decided to call Sean since he'd probably want to be there.

Come on Sean. Pick up your phone. I thought

*Buzz buzz*

"Hey Mark." Sean said

"Sean, Shae set up a phycologist appointment for Jace at 6:30 if you wanna come down." I said

"Oh. Okay." He said sounding frightened

"It'll be okay babe." I reassured him