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Chapter 22

Shane's pov
It's was around ten when Sean, Mark, and Patrick had fallen asleep. It was now midnight. Carefully I walked over to Sean and pulled up his sweater sleeves. On his right arm there was nothing but his tattoo. On his left arm there was cuts, to many to count. I heard Mark stir in his chair and quickly pulled Sean's sweater sleeve down.

"I already knew he did it." Mark whispered looking at me

"Oh." I said pulling it back up. "Some of them are pretty deep."

"Yah, I know." Mark sighed. "I didn't get back fast enough with his meds."

"He'll be okay. None of them are deep enough to kill him. He'll just be supper soar in the morning." I told Mark

"Which on of you is Shane?" A nurse asked

"Me, why?" I asked

"Jace is asking for you." She said grabbing my hand

"Okay." I said glancing at Mark quickly before being drug off by the nurse

When we arrived in Jace's room he had a huge smile on his face as he watched me walk in.

"Hey babe." He said sleeply

"Hey." I said softly

"I'm sorry." He said looking at his lap. "I just... It's so hard-

"Babe you don't need to apologise. I get it." I said cutting him off

"Okay. How's Mark and Sean?" Jace asked

"They're okay. Sean has been pretty emotional but that's normal for him." I said deciding not to tell him about the whole cutting thing

"Yah. Sean has BPD too." Jace explained

"I figured as much." I said

Jace winced as he moved over in his bed.

"Babe what are yo-

"Come lay with me." Jace said interrupting me

"Okay?" I questioned

About ten minutes after a nurse came in and unhocked Jace from the heart monitor and all the other machines he was attached to. He smiled and thanked her. After that I layed my head on Jace's chest and was almost asleep but he had to go pee. I wined as he climbed out of bed. When he came back he clicked the lock on the door and walked back over to bed. When he climbed in instead of allowing me to curl up on his chest he rolled over on top of me supporting himself with his hands and knees and he leaned down and kissed me. He began to pull away when I pulled him back down and began to make out with him. He moved one of his hands down to my crotch and began to rub roughly. I softly moaned into the kiss.

(Two weeks later)

"Jace! You're back!" Keira yelled hugging me

"Ofh. Hi Keira." I said as she ran into me

"I missed you." Keira said

"I noticed." I said laughing

We did gymnastics and goofed around for a while. Then Amy's boyfriend, Keira's ex, walked in.

"Aww hey." Amy said

Keira rolled her eyes and we all sat in the hall. I started to think about Mike. I'm not sure why but I've started haveing a lot more memories with him lightly. None of them are good.

~Flashback~

"Jace! You want me to call you Jace?!" Mike yelled

"Yes daddy." I nodded

"You're name is Racesa you ungrateful little shit! That's what your stupid mother named you and it's not going to change!" He yelled

"Mommy wasn't stupid!" I shouted at him instantly covering my mouth

Mike stared at me. "You're a worthless peice of shit." He said slapping me. "You never talk back to me!"

I felt myself pushed against a wall and a punch hit my stomach. Then my face. It just never ended.

~Flashback over~

"Jace!" Shane yelled trying to get my attention

I looked at him. My breathing getting faster.

"Jace what's wrong?" He asked touching my shoulder

"Don't touch me!" I yelled tears welling in my eyes. Everybody that was sitting with us was looking at me now

"Jace, take a deep breath." Shane said walking a little closer

"No, no. S-stay away from me!" I yelled panicking

"Amy go get Mr.B." Shane commanded

"I'm sorry. J-just leave me alone!" I yelled at him. All I could think about is Mike

"Jace. Jace look at me." He said grabbing my shoulders

"Get off of me Mike!" I screamed. The look in Shane's eyes was pure terror as he relised what was happening. I twished and squirmed trying to get away from him

"Jace, I'm going to go call Sean." Shane said softly

I was so deep into panicking that I didn't even notice. Then Mr.B came over.

"Jace?" He asked softly touching my arm

Why the hell does everybody have to touch me? "No Mike!" I yelled

"Did you just call me 'Mike'. Now you know better than that. It's 'Daddy' and you know better little girl." Said Mike's voice in my head

"Jace, I'm not going to hurt you, okay?" Mr.B asked

"That's what you said before! You're a liar!" I screamed

"You deserve this. You deserve every bit of this you worthless fuck!" Mike's voice yelled again

"Jace, it's okay." Mr.B said. By this point Mr.Renough was trying to get people to stay away from me and I still hadn't seen Shane

"It's not okay! It will never be okay!" I yelled

Then finally Sean and Mark walked in. Well more so came running down the hall. Sean had a pill bottle in his hand.

"No Daddy! No more pilles!" I screamed looking at the bottle terrified

"Jace. It's Sean. Remember me? I just want to help calm you down. Look I'll even give these to Markimoo. See." Sean said handing Mark the pill bottle

"It's okay baby boy. Dad isn't going to hurt you. Remember, I'm Jackaboy!" He winced, like it hurt when he said 'Jackaboy'.

"S-Sean?" I asked confused

"Yah, remember?" Sean asked

"D-don't hurt me." I said crying again

"Short steps, deep breaths, everything is alright. Chin up, I can't, step into the spotlight. She said 'I'm sad' somehow without any words. I just, stood there, searching for an answer. When this world is no more. The moon is all we'll see. I'll ask you to fly away with me. Until the stars all fall down, and empty from the sky, but I don't mind, if you're with me, then everything's alright." Sean sang the beginning of Everything Is Alright from Marks 8 million milestone video

I ran over and hugged sean. I was still crying a lot. "Don't let them hurt me Dad." I said through the sobs

"I won't baby boy. How about we all go home?" Sean asked looking at Shane

"Okay." I said

"Now, how about you try these, pweeeaase." Sean begged

"Okay Dad." I agreed taking the pills

Sean, Mark, Shane, and I all went home. I always felt bad about my melt downs after I calmed down. I hated them. They made me feel weak. Shane held my hand the whole way home, then it was off to bed.